and thank you for your smile today

HELLO

So it was 5 p.m. after college hours.
Met up with my friend there and I saw you on the backside, joking with your friend.

I should have forget it from long time ago, but,
Rush-rush-rush. I'm in the mood of rush.
This eyes just focused on you, while I was hidding behind my friends.
and, oh - you smile, with her again.

I was trying to let it go by joining their (my friends) joke whatever it was so cruel like 'lifting your friend as a cow then throw it away'. CRUEL.
Pretending not seeing you there.
But you came here, closely. Speaking with my friend.
First we're just talking as usual and joking of course.
Then you asked me,

" Are you not in the mood ? What happened ? Tell me, haha. Hey, I'm serious. "

I saw deeply into your eyes, I wanna say " It's because of you, stupid ! " but I realize that is a very bad idea to do.

" No, I'm just in a rush mood, " I throw my sight out.
" I think I'm kind enough for asking you but you ignore me like this. ckckck "

Then he talked with my friend about something freak and funny about a girl that made me laugh out loud.
So he said,

" Hey, you're laugh afterall. So we (he & my friend) are successfully for turn your mood good again, "
He smiled.

***

So it was evening and would be raining.
But it doesn't matter,
and thank you for your smile today.

p.s. you can guess, is it trully happened or just in my imagination :p

You're gonna be okay, you're not that weak

HELLO

First of December, 2009.

Most of you were waiting for December coming.
Yes, you've said it everywhere, on Twitter, Facebook, Plurk, etc. Even you weren't say it, I think you'll say 'yes' for the first statement.

Why waiting for December ?

Me, included to a person who isn't pay much attention of 'What month is it ?' or 'Is it already December ?' and so on.
Maybe December has it own speciality for some people, May-be.
But after people mentioned #decemberwish on their Twitter just now, something came up in my mind.

What is December for me ?

My December was welcoming by rain.
Yeah. Rain (for wheater) and 'rain' (reflection of the day).
I'm not talking about love.
...okay. Yes, I got a bad mark again, twice. Now is Calculus turn.
Not as bad as Physics last exam, but yeah you-know-that.
Do you feel bored if I'm talking about my mark again ? Hope you're not. I'm in a rush mood now. Absolutely.
(I don't know people whom I must discuss with, so here the top. You're my blog, right ? And I'm freely doing what i gotta do. )
My besties here got perfect score, 100 - 96 - 80-etc. They're great, They got their best try.


*Take a breath*

How December make my rainy day ?

With blank and unconditional mind after that, sentence like " Come on, Sasri. Cheer up, you'll do better next ! " or " This is not the end of your journey, you still have Final Exam ! " until the most unhelped one, " You must learn harder, " aren't help at all.
And it was rain that evening. Cold and dark.
Fulfilled by worried thingy, complicated, and rush.
Until I saw a tweet on my timeline, form TheHeartBox.
" You're gonna be okay, you're not that weak. "
...and sure,
It successfully flipped my mood.
So-What ?
I'm gonna be okay, because I'm not that weak.
I won't be broke by thingy like this.
Have I ever said that " It's not how much you've ever failed, but how much you get up and try again. " ?
Yes, I'm not that weak.
I'm not that weak.
I'm gonna be okay.
I'm gonna be okay.
I'm gonna be okay !

p.s. At least, December have it own meaning for me, now.

Symphonesia 2009 !

Monday, 9th November 2009 03:00 am

HELLO

so it was aaaw-some !
Started at 01.00 p.m. until 01.00 a.m. in Sasana Budaya Ganesha, with thousands people there.
A little bit regret because I was comin' late so I missed Endah 'n Rhesa performance *grrr Marching Band practice*
Then I went there with Sandy, Iqbal, Otum, and the others FTSL guys. Yeah, I'm the only girl (again) and the missing one. Most of my girl friends didn't come or they came with their boyfriend *uhuk jealous uhuk*. So there I was, pretending like a boy while hanging out with them.
Err. I miss my girl side. LOL

ASEAN Culture Performance, Angsa Srigala, Endah 'n Rhesa, Efek Rumah Kaca, The S.I.G.I.T, Ecoutez !, Maliq and D'essentials, and Glenn Fredly as closing, I think paying Rp 52.500 for the Symphonesia 2009 ticket is worth enough.
Sing all along the performance and take a lot of pictures.
And you know what - almost the song here was all about love. I mean sadlovestories, brokenhearted, complicated, bla bla sad mode : on.
Single people shooted !
Okay, I'm in.

Overall, Symphonesia 2009 was great, and I'd love to come again next year. hehe :)
And here is some pictures. Sorry, no pictures about us because the camera battery was exhausted. gezz


Guitarist from Ecoutez !


Glenn Fredly


Maliq and D'essentials


Ecoutez !


The S.I.G.I.T

p.s. Oh yeah, I wore a skirt there, count me in :p

When I Got A Bad Mark

Monday, 9th November 2009 22.31

HELLO

Calm, I'm not going to write about love.
So, you won't able to read melancholic-sentimental-dramatic post now.
Want to share college-peeps-thinking when they are in the first semester and got a bad mark for their first midtest.
Uh-I mean, me.

When I was in highschool, got a bad mark was usual. Not very bad but It wasn't a great mark to share with your friends. I never got excellent mark (100 pure) for all of my test.
Then I was trying to repair it.
The result ? Good enough.

After that, I entered college life, here, ITB. School of Electrical Engineering and Informatic.
Almost people with over-capacity of their brains ARE THERE.
In the other words, ex-all kinds of olympiad members or genius people who wrote mathematic book in 3 LANGUAGES when he was in highschool, or the subscribers of 'A' mark in every test.
(Wth with this faculty ?? )

Me ? Don't ask.

I know they (we called 'them' as 'God of STEI' or 'Dewa STEI') had work-so-hard in the past to reach it.
I know I haven't show my best try -even I don't know how to show it.
And I prefer to prior my non-academic activities, so I lost the important ones.

I got a bad mark on Physics midtest.
Seriously, BAD.
The worst mark I ever received.

I'm not cry or regret for it, I know from the first I took wrong strategy.
For a moment, reaching my target (IP > 3,5 at first semester) is still far away, but there's a chance on second midtest 3 weeks again.
It won't easy, but I-will-try.

No, I won't change into Study Oriented Person, but re-organize my activity and give more times to study. Pray too.

Would you wish me luck ?
Thank you.
Wish you get success too then,

p.s. no tears just fight !

Before you've entered finish line, you should be never give up.

HELLO

November 2nd 2009, 01:37
Waking up after stayed away too late. Rushing my imagination and tearing some midnight snack to start writing this post. Oreo Soft Cake looks better.
Oh, Non sense, I think.

So, me. staring in front of you. When I wrote this post, people around me was exploring their own imagination dreamworld.
Oh, wait, there's a boy next to my room playing his guitar and singing a catchy song. Maybe I should asked him what's the title of the song. At least I know that I'm not the only me who's still wake up in here.

Wait a minute.

Okay I'm back.

I don't even realize that for my last 2 post was talking about-uh-love ? Something that I rarely wrote for about 2 years blogging ( I started it on October 2007).
Weird. What things that makes me turn to a-melodic-drama-queen like this ? Arrgh no, I don't like it.

Bzzt. ITunes playing songs that refers me to someone I've thinked for sometime ago. Even shuffle mode can read what I'm thinking now.
And I still remember your face and expression when we-Stop, You're so-Oh, Stop. Please. Don't.
Be ready to find sentimental girl after this.

I want to talk with myself, my own ego and sarkatism side. Let myself not to postpoe works I've should done before. Warn my own ego not too obsessed with him. Asking my sarkatism side to do sarkatism things (Okay, I'm joking).
Seriously, I'm threating with 'Galau Syndrome' for now.
Social networking also be my victims, but, nah, I prefer to writing about mylife here than Twitter or Facebook.

About my lasr post, I told you that I hate for being A Secret Admirer. Why ? It just turns you into a tiredness and hopeless.
Hey, don't judge me that I just can say the words. I've ever be a Secret Admirer before, 3 years ago for about 1 years, and I'm doing nothing.
Yep. Nothing. Just staring from a distance and go out with someone else I didn't love, It was nothing.
That was a main reason why I don't want to be A Secret Admirer (again). Useless and dissapointing.

Let's try frontal way.
Like a music, like your life.
Listening what you want to listen, Living what you want to live.
If you love someone, then don't just sit, wait, and hope like she/he would come to you.
Even you have no brave to say it out loud that you are falling with them, then try to get closer with.
Is it happy for being around with someone we loved ? Absolutely.
Yeah, I can see your cheesy smile when you're imagine it.

What's the point afterall ?
Before you've entered finish line, you should be never give up.

Oh, right. I'm feels like I'm a Love Consultant now -weird.
Then I want to ended this post.

p.s. I hate this virus.

I hate for being a Secret Admirer

HELLO

I wanna see my expression while i wrote this post. Contrary to the fact that I don't know how can I express my feeling know. Happy ? Maybe. Sad ? Not wrong.

Oh, You need flashback ? Go on. No need ? Then go.

Last Saturday night was awesome ! Hanging out with 7 Pom - Pom Boys (Arif, Nunu, Dipil, Ryan, Otum, Kiky, Yanu ) and my girls (Ulfi and Tyas) who are very very BRUTAL ! haha

We went to NAV Karaoke at Ciwalk and spending time there for about 2 hours. We were addicted with a virus called craziness. We sang along with our choice songs and most of the songs are 'Broken-Hearted Song' which refers to our love situation that time.
Complicated Love Life *sigh*.

But I really enjoyed it, all things related to 'Stress High Stadium' was gone. We laugh over and over, e talked about love and some useful tips to passed it by.
And the most wanted session we never passed : PHOTOSESSION.

We need to go out again next day, I really want to :)













Here they are. Look at those wierd faces. LOL

Ehm, I want to share pics when I had HEDON TIME with Ms. Tata in SourSally PVJ. Great time with her.



Then we'll enter a mellow-drama session. You still read ? Okay.

Seriously, I want to show how happy I am being around you, but then I think " Oh no, just don't. It will be the worst thing I've ever done. "
I know the fact, I know it. I know.
You know it is so-HARD being a person that just can see and wait.

Hell.
ITunes playing 'When You Love Someone' by Endah n Rhesa.

***
I love you but it’s not so easy to make you here with me
I wanna touch and hold you forever
But you’re still in my dream
And I can't stand to wait ‘till nite is coming to my life
But I still have a time to break a silence

When you love someone
just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
when you hold your love
don’t ever let it go
or you will loose your chance
to make your dreams come true.

I used to hide and watch you from a distance and i knew you realized
I was looking for a time to get closer at least to say... “hello”
And I can’t stand to wait your love is coming to my life

***
Shoot !
That represents what I feel now.
Blur. I can't think. Galau.

Maybe what I want to say now is
"I hate for being a Secret Admirer."


p.s. I need some fresh air (again)

We're in the same town but different stories

HELLO

I want to know what's your expression when i'm come back here, writing such an annoyed post that disturbing your sleep, Bloogy ?
Wake up ! Give your total attract for me, your majesty. Oh, you have ? Okay, that's good.
Now can I start my sentences ? Don't be fall a sleep, please.

Bandung is an unpredictable city like I spent my last Saturday and Sunday Nite with my new friends, my homeboys pom - pom boys. You're rockin' awesome, you've made it ! I can laugh afterall i spent my time with you all, sillys. Thank you, sick ! hahaha

Bandung also an unpredictable stories, especially for love stories.
' We're in the same town but different stories. '
The special tagline I've made for describe what i feel now. Classy, but naturally.

As through I met some friends, almost are in a relathionship status, which mean they are taken. Most of them passing through Long Distance Relationship or we called LDR (and most of them have same shape : Jakarta - Bandung Relationship). And some of their relationship just start to be broken.
I've seen how it happened, and why ? Because they are not ready to start Long Distance Relationship or the other factors ( read : new people zz )
I'm here not to critic or insult you who is reading my post and maybe have the same thing like what i said before, okay. I'm sorry.

What ? Nah, I'm not interested on starting Long Distance Relationship, seriously I won't.
I ended my last relationship because I don't want to get include LDR in my life.
You told me that I'm a coward ? Whatever you said, I-don't-care Baby.

Beside all of many LDR problems, I prefer to pass Close Distance Relationship ( weird ? yeah it is)
In the same town, in the same place, in the same college.
We're in the same town, no matter it was.

But, what i feel now is still too far than i admired.
People I interested in has his own life, his own stories. Sometimes I don't know that does he okay there ? Are you okay with your girlfriend ?

Though,
We're in the same town but different stories.
Kita satu kota beda cerita.
It is just same with Long Distance Relationship.
Then, which one better ?


p.s. Put your smile again on your face, nah, that's looks better, boy.

i'm fine :)

HELLO

for the times i left you cold,
i just can say 'sorry'.

so, whats up people in here ?
i really miss my blogging time ! one month (or more) had no touch with this blog just feel like wierd here.
oh, last September 29th 2009 i had my 18th birthday !
happy birthday to me. hha
okay then.
you want a quick update ?

almost 2 months i live in Bandung.
enjoying college life here,
study in groups together,
tasting new food in each cafetaria,
stress about UTS (d'oh) every friday,
spending time with besties,
hanging out with new people,
joining Marching Band and Colour Guard practices,
joining PSB-ITB as stage division,
and the most thing i like is be a part of ITB Fair 2010 as performance division.

it's FUN although makes me tired.
i'm fine here. i'm very very fine :)

but kinda times, i miss my family.
i miss my besties, oldfriends outta there.

what i've gonna do just open my laptop and see all of their pictures.
i miss them.
a lots.

p.s. i really get into him now, college homeboy ! hhe :)

colour guard

HELLO !

090909 !
what's everybody doin' here ?
then i'll say again that because of connection problem in my kos so i couldn't recently update in here.
big sorry :(

just small updates here,
so i've joined 2 major units in my college that is MBWG (Marching Band Waditra Ganesha) and KPA (Keluarga Paduan Angklung).

especially for the first one,
Marching Band is one of my dream activity ( through in my school before there isn't )
so i'm very happy & interest about MBWG ! hehe
the position i wanted most is Colour Guard or we short it CG.
it called for the person ( almost the member are girls) that place as flag spinning and dancing in Marching Band so they make it more interesting and colourful.


Colour Guard

so, in the MBWG trial-test yesterday i've done my best in CG trial-test.
spinning a flag is a little bit hard to do but it's so much fun.
then the result was, I GOT IT ! yeeaaay *lebay* hehe
i can't wait for CG first practice !

enough then, wait for next updates ! hhe

p.s. my body is not delicious today, hukhuk :(

get ready for college life, college girl.

HELLO

i'll say BIG SORRY again for left you cold my bloggy.
in my place there's a problem with internet connection so i must take a walk to warnet if i wanted to go online.
what a mess :(

so, here i am.
starting a new life in Bandung for a college life. get ready college girl. uhm
stay in a place named KOS-KOSAN (i dunno the english name-zz) push me to be an independent girl.
i go everywhere by myself, by public transportation or take a walk.
buy or make breakfast, lunch, dinner by myself.
doing all things by myself.
seems pretty hard but i'm sure it will be nice then.

almost 2 weeks since i have arrived here.
first week fulfilled with : registration, fixed the kosan and ospek.

ospek (in ITB called PRO-KM) was amazing !
the opening is absolutely great, performing colaboration from many units.
we divided into some groups.
i got 114 group, consist 16 people with only 5 girls from different faculty. (which are damn sick and crazyyyyy ! )
the taplok (senior) were ka devi and ka picul.
we're doing great things like : seminar, making posters, making diary, senam geje, chitchatfoe, photoshoot, and sooo many things that will be usefull for us.
(yeaa, there's still 'creepy things' from senior but it doesn't matter) hehe
we built our togetherness in ITB.

then next week, college life.
yeaa, i started it on 18 August 2009.
as you think, college is different from school. but it's fun ! :)
many friends from different region, many types of dosen, many interesting people to meet. haha
i got a looooots of friends here.
they're nice and easygoing. i love that.

for the units, i choose MBWG (marching band waditra ganesha) as my main priority !
i don't know why, i like it. hehe
and i must try hard to be colour guard, my favorite position. hehe

in the back side,
i miss yeeeeeu all my family, my bestfriends, my gossipas, my sillypadepokan, my dancers, all alll !
in this month my daddy and my bestie (mbex) have their birthday and i'm not include there.
zzz i don't know what to write next.

i think it's the most complicated post i ever write,
guess why ?

p.s. this is ramadhan month, happy fasting all. i'm sorry for all mistakes.

..and finally the BIG dream...

HELLO

in the end of July 2009 i just can't imagine how was my feeling after saw the result of SNMPTN 2009.
inputed my exam number and then..

Peserta Diterima
No tes : 3094201217
Nama : Dyah Diwasasri R
Prodi : 351075

Subhanallah...
i can't believe it. the prodi's code is for STEI ITB, my main destination, my BIG DREAM !
i just can say "Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah Ya Allah..."
prostration and give much thanks to Allah..
this tears show the time when one of my dream come true.
speechless and unbelievable..

***

i remember the time when i confused to choose being 'optimist' or 'realist'.
now i'm relief because i pushed myself out to be 'optimist', and fight till the last to reach my dream and hope.
and it happened.

"Allah always give chance for us to realize our dreams depend on our efforts."

at fist, i have no confidence to place ITB as my first choice, but i conclude everything is gonna be allright if you're believe and pray.
because Allah is fondly with all of us..
( i can't describe it with the words, i'm just speechless and wordless because of this )

thank you sooo much for all who pray for me and give support until now.
beb dadi, ibu teki, grandma, uncles, aunts, bro and sist..
besties and all my wonderful friends, thank you and congratulations for our success !
you're all amazing and wonderful.
live our life, we're going to create the new era for ourself.
even we separated by the distance, it doesn't mean the friendship things.
thank you & good luck !
i love love you all.
this is a very best gift and finally it's a very good news.

welcome, itb :)

p.s. don't affraid to dream, sure that you CAN reach it !

5 random songs

HELLO

i'm sorry for left you cold, bloggy.
hmm. finally i made up my last exam on last sunday. geez
now i'm just waiting for the result. hahahaha i'm nervoussss bby, hope it will be a good news. xp

***

look, i'll play 5 random songs in my playlist, then i'll write what's on my mind when i listened to the songs. okay. hha

( song played Deep - Binocular )

what's on my mind ? guess. hha
i'm very very excited because next wednesday on July 29th 2009 we'll have PADEPOKAN ON THE BEACH ! yeaaay ! :D
located in Bandengan Beach, Jepara.
we called it farewell session two. hhi
many problems comes but it had cleared.
i can't waiiit my amazing guys and girls ! :D

( song played Forever by Killing Me Inside )

my bad.
adore someone adorable.
complicated and never be reach (i know, i know, i'm just ordinary).
haha, hurt.

( song played Apologize by One Republic )

i remember one thing.
look, i'm comfort with my silly-lovey-life (which already over) now.
feel : free. independent. no burden.
i think the past is just over, not forever.
so, what must i say...maybe bye and be careful on your way ? hha

(song played Bestfriend by Toybox )

friendship and togetherness.
besties all along (yes, you two my dear :D )
i'll be missing you.
thank you for... everything.
i can't say anything more, you both just priceless.

( song played Vulnerable by Secondhand Serenade )

me. hha
i always listens this song when i feel like i'm a coward, not confident, or feel i'm just an ordinary not supreme highclass extraordinary peep like others.
the chorus : ".. I'll make it better than it ever was." is pushing me not to think that i'm not invicible. hhe
i'm an ordinary who can do extraordinary things ! :)

***

okay game over. hha
thank you for reading this silly-notes.
see yaa balabala :)

p.s. i hate to see your smile because it makes me want to see it again. hhi xp

it would ended soon

HELLO

sometimes love feels right or sometimes it's wrong.
i'm one of the people who unconditionally in a stuck open relationship
and i'm feel no longer with it at all.

geez, i'm not on the mood to tell you about my current love story, you know.
there is nothing happen between us, okay.
no more because of the 'third people' or something we've gotta do.
so, uhm..

being in undefined relationship for approximatelly one year (or more) isn't short time called.
at first started, it was going great.
everyday just gone gone away.
routine activities, bla bla bla.. b**ed
when i realized,
i'm not feel it anymore.

i'm tired..

now, i just want to be free.
free for thinking anything about love for a while.
because my mind filled up with friendship and other things except you.
yes. it's not a good reason, i know.

would you mind to set me free ?
and let's make a good friend.
thank you for your kindness and sorry for everything.

...hope you know.
( until it posted, i haven't told it to the people i mean *what a coward )
i'm messed up of everything.

p.s. i know i'm the coward and selfish one, but this is what i feel now.

4th award

HELLO !

thank you for

MAYANG

who gave me this award,
i love your blog too, dear :)

and i will continue this award to...
Ippa
Zulfi
Nayla
Ridho
Icha

get your prize then :)

Padepokan, highschool best moment

HELLO

i'm sorry for late update because i don't know what i'll write first here.
i've sooo many things that i want to describe.
then i choose this topic,

***

most people said that, 'highschool is the best moment ever'.
do you think so ? i did.

my padepokan class farewell party has held in Bandungan, last saturday 'till sunday (11 - 12 July 2009) in the same villa when i had my middle highschool class farewell party last year.
hey buddies, i think that was 'the best moment ever' in my highschool time.
yes. it was.

like usual farewell party, we share, we sing, we laugh, we had lot of jokes, taking so many pics, cooking together, BBQ party continue with bonfire time, and the last.. 'afterthought time'.
it...was...touchfull.
i can't describe how amazed it was.

the night when our tears become the witness.
we talked open-minded, we shared, we apologized for the faults, we remember the moment of this 1 year, we cried, we sang along, we gave hugs each other and sank into our ambience.
aaaarghh, this make me miss them more and more :(

from the night talks, nyak & i confess & apologize to andika about our big faults to him, and the result was unsuspectly out from our think.
he approved our apologize and just let it go like nothing happened. how kind.. 
we're seriously sorry... :(

i can't tell you for the details because it'll need so many pages.
but i'll type some words that stick into my mind,

" if you think that you'll miss your friends after 2-3 days from now, i have already thought it for long time ago." - ff

"don't push someone to get along our way, but push ourself to the their ways." -fw

" we won't ever realize how important friends are, until we lost them. " -dm

*sigh*
i really, really love & miss you PADEPOKAN. thank you for the  unforgetable year.
we are family and this is my best class ever after.
our togetherness lasts forever.

I LOVE YOU...

hugs & kisses,

p.s. this post dedicated to you all, my amazing guys. i miss you. hiks ;(

fight 'till the last !

HELLO !

helloooo everybody, what's going on ? :D
long time no see, write, or just take a look in my bby bloggy. hehe
yes. after graduation day (100% graduate alhamdulillah) and had spent the best highschool prom nite ever (see my fb for the pics), 
i'm declined from social networking (facebook, blogging, ym, etc) for about 2-3 weeks.
because of the reason 'searching for the best future' is now begin, i must have leaved it for a while. hehe

about my big dream, itb. i'm still unfortunate on the entrance test last month, but it didn't make me down.
having itb as the first choice in SNMPTN, maybe some people could say 'how dare you ?' or 'nekat amat sih ?'

my bestie ever asked anyone about being optimistic or realistic ?
being optimistic to reach your big dream (even though it's very very HARD to realize it)
or being realistic ? choose the 'save choice' one, and postpone your big dream ?

at first, i said realistic, i choosed the save one.
then, it changed after my uncle had said " there is no different between optimistic and realistic, the most important is you still move on to the top and get your best. "
how can i forget something important like that ?

i want to dare my fortune once again, reach my dream and being optimistic.
i'll fight 'till the last !
no matter why, i just want to be relief.

whatever the result it is, wish me bring you a great story on the next post ! hhe
so, see ya next week :)

p.s. i really miss my highschool time. hiks ;(

4th June isn't always bad

HELLO

today is 4th of June.
this day make my memories returns to the past,
when it -unwillingness- happened the same situation which is : broken heart. (with different people.)

yeah, simple but sure.
i ever wrote the old story of my 4th of June (just click the link), which is tell about my broken heart experiences, a year and two years ago.

040607 - ended with friendship until now, after a very very long time to forget it all. (you know who he is, my bestfriend until now.)
040608 - ended with fast break
and,
040609 - it haven't ended yet, because it's continue the 040608 afterwhile, but i don't know until when it would be lasted.

anyway,
after 040608 happened, i create my special quote which is 'BEING ALONE IS NOT TOO BAD' that becomes my favourite quote everywhere until now.
that words has made me think that " hey, you're okay if you're alone. don't be affraid. it isn't a must that you must be together with someone, right ? "

and then i thought,
i won't be the same happened again in the next year, in 4th of June 2009, 040609, today.
and it becomes true.
i can spend today with a little pieces of happiness, no matter what it is.
fortunately, i haven't broken heart yet, today.(hopefully not)
and it simply makes me create a special quote for today :

' 4th of JUNE IS NOT ALWAYS THAT BAD '

don't worry about your brolkenheart experiences, everyone ever feels it, okay.
don't affraid to feel broken heart, no matter the one who break the heart or the one whose heart is broken,
it's just a step to be mature.

see ya !

p.s. bad memories now replace with sweet memories.

make a bento for someone ? think again.

HELLO !

'think again before you made a bento.'
it was my bad experience last day when i was trying to make a bento(=bekal) for someone.
i'm not a dramatic lady or somehow, but that day make me turns bad.

so,
i'm not woke up in the early morning to make this bento because i just made a pizza mie.
it's too salty but whatever. haha
then, before we went to the course place i gave him this bento.
but, when we arrived he said something that made my emotions turns to the top and felt like this bento was useless.

fortunately, i must went home faster, so i'm no need to go home with him.
on the way to the front, he stopped me but i walked on and on.
i won't listen anything beacuse i had peevish that time.
i command him not to eat and give the bento to my besties.
then i leaved him and went home.

and you know ?
after that he just send me a message and said "i'm just kidding..."
oh-ho. funny ? after it already happened ?
sorry, i'm not consider it as a joke.You can said i'm too egoistic or whatever, but i was really really peevish that time.
i won't be regret and i assume that i won't make a bento again for him.
it's enough.

ian and baskoro said that "almost boy will be happy if you make a bento for him. "
yeah, almost. not all.
maybe i must make a bento just for myself. haha

p.s. for you especially girls, don't be like me. if they said anything bad about your bento don't be hurt. maybe it just a joke. okay.

3rd award

HELLO !

thanks for Latif who gave me this award :)

1. Link the person who tagged you.
M. Latif Rozi - Latif2. Copy the image above, the rules and the questionnaire in this post.

3. Post this in one or all of your blogs.

4. Answer the four questions following these Rules.
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1. The person who tagged you: M. Latif rozi
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3. Date when you were tagged: 18 Mei 2009
4. Persons you tagged

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5. Recruit at least seven (7) friends on your Blog Roll by sharing this with them.
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7. Have Fun!

it become very serious

HELLO

it become very serious.

when you always lays your sight on him/her then said, " he/she is my idol ! i just admire him/her ! "
and didn't realize that you've already fell on him/her.
fulfilled your mind, took of your breath, made up your smile, stolen your sight easily.
beside that, you are afraid.
afraid that it would erase someone who belong to you until now.

i know, i'm wrong.
i don't even know how it could be happened...

p.s. 'holiday' (not real holiday) is comin'. i'll be missed you all friends :(

eye

HELLO

for this time, i push my self into poetic-world. just it seems to be. I don't write it for someone, okay. It's just 'whatever'. hehe

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THE EYE IS YOU

I remember us,
the way we used to be,
I'd look your smile through my eyes,

But when I see you,
you look right through me,
I feel so alone,
but when I close my eyes...
i see you.

The pain we used to share,
gone up in whirl winds,
will I ever love,
or ever live again,

I am tired of crying,
and I am done trying,
To remember all about you,
but when I close my eyes...
i see you again.

All the feel I am sending,
the memories I won't sell,
I know there must be an ending,
to the story I will tell,

I dream only of your glory,
and happiness in life,
I try not to think of you,
but when I close my eyes...
all i see is you.

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FYI, which part i like from people around me ?
The answer is EYE.
mostly, i interested with people (in physically) is because the eye.
because it's deep & meaningful.
do you think so ? hhe

p.s. i've got terrible stomachache. soon i'll tell you. it's disgusting, you know. yuck

blogging season coming soon ?

HELLO

blogging season coming soon !

yeah, one sentence that represent 12th graders in my school, right ?
we know, the reason is almost because of the requirement of ICT Practical Examination which will be held next week.
some students said "ah, buat apa sih ? ngrepotin aja." (then go away)
or just said, "alah, cuma bikin blog kan ? gampang. " (but they won't open and write it anymore)

actually, what is the main function for this assignment ?
is it just : sign up - change template - one post - collect the assignment - done ?
or maybe you'll start to be addicted with blogging ? ( i hope so )

in my side, blogging is one way to represent your talent of writings.
no matter what kind it is, about your dailylife, favourite, song, pictures, review, information, tips & trick or etc.
it can be a place to share what you can't share with anyone in the real life.
you can post anything what you want, anything what you like, anything what you want to share.
don't be shy, fells.
there are soooo many friends you'll meet in here (blog world) or called 'blogwalker'.
you can start to visit their blog, intoduce, give comments, exchange link, etc.

see ?
blogging is not just only for requirements.
blogging is extremely fun !
so, let's start your day with blogging now, and share me with your great stories, i really want to read it. hehe :)

HAPPY BLOGGING !

p.s. I adore Raka Cyril Damar, he's the best from past until now ! :D

Why I often write this blog in English ?

HELLO

how's your day going ?
now i'm typing Javanesse Drama Script for practical examination next two weeks. geez
oh yes, it's simple-serious-comedious because the theme is : Religious.
lookin' for my drama group, it's such an impossible to make a seriously religious drama.
how bad with that, we'll make this by our way.
..or in the other words : slang it ! haha

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so, in my last two post, you have my words to explain :
'Why I always writes this blog in English ?'
actually not 'always' but 'often'.
hell yeah.
it's not because i want to show off you how well i could write in English. ( Hey, I haven't good grammar enough, okay. i know that. )
or maybe said, I'm not Nasionalist or not proud about our mother language-Indonesia.
or said, "Nge-blog pake bahasa Indonesia tuh cupu tau, Inggris dong gaul ! Wassap men ?"
no no no, A BIG NO !

take a look, people.
I'm sure that most of you have already read text titled 'Why English is Important' ?
( it is on our English textbook -for you highschool graders, or you can surfin' it on the internet. hehe )
I want to improve my ability and skill in English by doing this real practical learning (blogging in English) beside consider that my grammar isn't well enough and my vocab still insufficient.
I feel helped by you who ever critisize and give suggestion about my shortage ability in English, thank you.
I'm learning here to be better next, just that :)
how about you try to doing this (writing in English) ? not all out, just step by step.
you'll find different sensation. English is Fun. hehe

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how yeah, serious topic is over. hehe
i'm sorry if some of you offended by my words, i don't mean it. i'm sorry.
based on above, i'm not declare that i must write all of my post in English.
maybe sometimes i'll write it in Indonesia Language.
because, we know that writing in Indonesia Language is more enjoyable than others. hha

cheers,

p.s. School Examination is coming, watch out fells !

last weekend fever

HELLO !

finally, national examination was over !
so i'm relief for a while in here.
i'll tell you about my last weekend which is just one word : AWESOME.

Saturday, April 25th 2009

1st. SPORTISTA !

as usual team : me, pemz, ian, and baskoro. ( baskoro is veryyy lateee arrgh )
at first we wanted to do jogging in TLJ, but it was closed because there is porsimaptar. zzz
then, we went to school.
yeah school. haha
we played badminton, then basketball. after a while vicky was coming and played tennis with ian and bas.
i played badminton again with pemz, from the far i saw anggari ambon and rendra ( they were after doing MIB )
hooo. sport day today.
for me, it's fun because i feel like it's a long time for me for doing sport since months ago. hhe

2nd. HANG OUT w/ MOM

it's saturday and thats mean : my mom comes home.
after sport, i went with her and my little sister to eat siomay. hha ( my dad comes to from his office to eat a while with his fams. hhe )
then we went to Matahari which is : HOT ENOUGH
what were we do ? oh it's just take a walk. hha

3rd. HELLO BEACH !

my cellphone ringing, a message received and it's from bang hud said that 'spyderguys refreshing day on Maroon Beach start at 3.00 p.m ! if you wanna join please called adri.'
no more thinking i said yes !
and then we go, for me & pemz it's the first time i went there. hha nerd
men playing water & soccer, woman just taking pics. hhe
i enjoy it so much, i love this day. hha

4th. MIDNITE CINEMA

at maghrib i went home and welcomed with : " change your clothes, we'll going to cinema now. "
after a glance, i've already in E Plaza and be ready for watched 'I Know Who Killed Me',
the film was urrrgh, i don't know what to say, it's about mutilation and stigmatis. yuck !
then i closed this wonderful saturday.

Sunday, April 26th 2009

5th. I HAVEN'T TAKE A BATH

early morning, my home's bell ringing, 'TING TONG!'
" there is your friends outta there."
what ? this early morning and i haven't take a bath yet ??
guess what, fikar and ambon. they want to have a chat for a while.
how could i said that i haven't take a bath ?
am i smell or something ? but i have brushing my teeth ! is my perfume working well ? is it help ?
zzzzzz

6th. FISHING O RAMA

midday, my family and om topo's family went fishing together.
me and lia just took a lot of pics and enjoyed meal until we were bloated ! hehehe
it's so great because we joking and kidding each others in a car. hahaha

7th. SLEEP

this the activity i like most. hahaa

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so that's all my awesome weekend, a refreshing after examination of course. hhe
what about you ?

p.s. i got lot lots of nice pics ! yeeey