Not Over You

HELLO

Good (early) morning, bloogy.
Kind of addicted with this song, Not Over You by Gavin DeGraw.
Well the cover version is better so you better check out this cover videos :

Not Over You - Gavin DeGraw

(Cover By : Alex Goot & Against The Current)

Not Over You - Gavin DeGraw

(Cover By : Kurt Schneider & Max Schneider)

Goot & ATC's version is fun, their voice blending perfectly. But I like Schneider's version more, Max's voice and expression is just priceless. Yes, you go see it first.

But until then

It's alienation I know that much is understood

And I realized

If you ask me, how I'm doin'

I would say I'm doin'' just fine

I would lie and say that you're not on my mind

But I go out and I sit down

At the table set for two

And finally I forced to face the truth

No matter what I say

I'm, not over you

Best part. I smell somewhat reflection in here, super honest one.

The lyrics of this self explanatory song is absolutely uncovered the writer. Good job, Gavin.

p.s. Uncountable replay button clicked.

A Footstep

HELLO

The sweetest thing is, you get a million chance of happiness. Whoever whatever whenever it is, you, in this condition, over receiving it. And you must know what will happen to something excessive? Crumble, crash, in a mess, fall apart. It doesn't mean that you're still alive right now in your place, you sure about it?

A footstep.
Won't hear any reason about how hard it will be, how you loose your current comfy condition, how you apologize, your excuse, your bla-bla-bla between another bla-bla-bla.


A footstep.
July 2013, July 2014.


A footstep.
Are you done yet?

A footstep.
........

Go. You know your desire, your dream.
Because together doesn't mean forever, and vice versa.

A footstep.

p.s. No, Sir. I don't ask for your symphaty, and I'm sure you don't have any intention to give it. For sure.

Eat this stupidity #5

HELLO

(November 21, 2012)
Happy grow older, big fat slave kid!
The moment of stupidity video is over, now you get another master piece.

Falling down between love and career is doesn't matter at all

Because you're still a kid after all.

***

...and happy hunting!

Sincerely,
Us.

People are

HELLO

How's day? Final Assignment is just..............no, forget it.
Just read tonight's babble.

People are busy with their business.
People are hanging around and stop making non-sense things.
People are just lying around the truth.
People are stating their own excuses, cursing, spreading negative.
People with their ability, forcing themselves, know that they're not that health but still tormenting themselves. People in denial, bad hard procrastinator.
And another things that people do, nowadays.

Because nowadays everything is fake.
So why don't you just show the truth while people will see it as a fake?

Cyber fake, self imaging. What do you want to expect?
Don't take every answer as a yes, maybe you just don't realized that the 'yes' thing is only on your pure imagination. What about the people? Have you ever asked something to ensure? Or this small thing is not that too important in your small life?
Real world and imagination is so close today. 
So close, until we don't know, where do we live, actually.

p.s. Didn't get the meaning? Didn't get what do you expect to read in this blog? Natural thing, because I write that on another box. Bye.

Broken Cell Phone

HELLO

So this is the 4th time.
I said, re-installing your cell phone is not the best way. You lost all your data, phone book, BBM contacts, notes, important messages, calendar, media (included pictures, videos, recordings), etc etc although it was my fault that I didn't back up my data routinely.
There's something wrong with the internal software so it was dead and black, no starting up at all.
Though I get this phone from my auntie, but the total service cost is almost same with buying the new one.

Well,
Reach me in another way if you had any business with me.
Paka.

p.s. Guess I should take one more part-time job to overcome the budget.

Invitation

HELLO

Another formal greeting, I set my day by purpose for a couple weeks.
Seems like everything's alright over there, isn't it? Glad to know that, because I haven't seen or heard anything from the original source.

Hey, wanna play a game?
Just a simple guessing game and I invited that one person, only if you want to come over.

"The cyber place is identical, but different land. Knock the door with the words of a song that I made 19 months ago. Welcome to the alter ego."

Well, see ya.

New Box

HELLO

Another bad or good news for you, bloogy.
Because I found some eyes comes here often, I decide to create a new box for the drafts which have been frozen on your cabin. It's fully protected, and I won't post any clues here.
But don't worry, I won't leave you, still love to playing around here.
Smell you around!

If I said no,

HELLO

My self, you said it before,
You sure that I don't have to lend a hand to make you stand up.
You sure that I don't have to slap your face to make you realized.
Now,
Are you really sure?

p.s. Cheering for your self is not too bad, good luck for your final project, fast track, part time, and another responsibly things. Don't get frown easily.

Her stupid lines

HELLO

It's 01.38 a.m.
They are sleeping now, it should be our time to finish 2 deadlines and study for magister exam today. But, no, none at all.
Just arrived from graduation nite, haven't been in my place for about 3 days in a row.
Having a short conversation with one friend,

"Does everything went well?"

"Yes."

"Seems to be better then before?"

"Yes, very, very much better now." 

"Feeling much better?"

"Yes, uhm, what it called- ah, freedom."

Seems like you're feeling much better right now, then I must be glad for it.
Plunged in thought for a moment, how much you've restrained your self before it and how contemptible she was.
No one is as bad as this woman.
Unfortunately, the woman is sitting in front of you right now, typing her stupid lines.
Before she make it as a draft, or accidentally publish it.

Anyway, it seems familiar.
I think the phrase "Are you feeling much better now?" already comes up 2 or 2,5 years ago.

p.s. proper sleep, let's get it on the next 2 days.

Here Comes the King

HELLO

Alhamdulillah, MBWG for BMBC 2012.
Thank you for the great works and support from all of you : committees, players, coaches, official, ITB, etc.
Special thanks for lions' mommies : Ferlita Andriani, Fedriz Revanisa, Putri Mayang Sari, Septina Ryan Mayarani, Agitha Yusuf, and all of our baby lions :')
This is our pay back, don't be too high, still a long way to go for the next achievement.
Anyway congratulations MBWG!

MBWG for BMBC 2012 full team :)

Material Team

Achievements :')

Best Guard

Best Visual

Lions :')

Video Link : Teaser | The Journey | The Day (Low Resolution)

p.s. Can't deny that, yes, I want to perform once again.

Unfinished Coffee

HELLO

Does anybody here want to drink coffee?
Please just take mine, before this dirty hands start to type their stupid monologue lines, or it was too late.

Don't expect too much, dear. How much egoism you need to make you satisfied?
Thought that you said since the past month, "Familiarize to live a life without something that isn't here anymore." to your self for thousands time, does it really work?

Sure, it wasn't that easy, but it doesn't mean too hard to be said.
But the unspoken has been spoken, let's state what you promises to your self.
Don't disturb and ruin somebody's life, dear my self, because that person deserves to get a better life with or without you.
Then just give up if it's not running properly. If you need to go then just go.

Now count, how many words that you erased before you post this?
I don't believe that only this words that you typed in 2 hours.

Smell you later.

p.s. I wrote it with a glass of coffee beside and eyes with no tolerance at all.

Eat this Stupidity #4

HELLO

(Should be posted on September 30, 2012)

"What doesn't kill you will make you stronger."

***

It's a good statement for an appetizer, like what they did below.

Kind of boring, because we did the same method for each our birth times.
That's why for the main course, how could you expect more from something awe-****in'-some from this peeps.

Freakin' out, let's declare my self to be groupie of these stupid band.
No, not only what you see in these pics, you won''t know what the hell they were doing actually.
Never enough thanks, as you said, for this year it's the best gift ever.
Only for this, maybe i love you (euh) dear grandma and kids :)
I eat the stupidity right now.
Standing and never ending applause *take a bow*

Sincerely,
Me.

Draft

HELLO

Hello there, and hello to you, stalkers.
Just now I write something that become a draft. Anyway, it's different with another bloogy drafts.
Maybe later I'll found a way to make it possible to read, but only for one person I want.

Until next time, enjoy your tea.

View from the stage

HELLO

(Should be posted on September 19th 2012)

The reason is, no humanity out there.
People is busy with their own business. People are talking about themselves, no one listening.
They speak about sarcasm, with "just kidding" followed behind, didn't care about anything around.
Teasing you, like you're gonna be okay with that jokes forever.

With the world goofing around you, you can just speak nothing.
Besides, who cares whether you speak or not if the ending has already created before?
Let them assume, let them playing with their mind. Let them jump in their imaginary playground.

Nobody recognize you anyway,
You can just walk, and start to breath, faker.
Give them your last wave and the stage was closed.
Welcome to your world.

p.s. standing ovation for the great show, until the last.

Clean it up

HELLO

We're going on this.

Get out from this way and say it's fine.

-Fake and Pride (2011)

***

Wondering why suddenly I came here often?
Bored to see me, huh? Should I left you cold again for some months?
Oh, you shake your head, bloogy. Good kid.

This evening I went home with my logical friend and it makes me realize that neutralism is still long way to go from my side.
That's okay, because happiness is not always be your cover of life.
Don't be ashamed with your sadness, it's just part of showing you're not that weak.
Like the all time quote, "You're gonna be okay, you're not that weak."
Staring at the mess I made in the past 3 weeks, let's clean it up.
Sorry for making you feel bad, dear September.

p.s. Haven't got my voice back, but finally I bought one roll of tissue, Alhamdulillah.

Lost Voice

HELLO

Had a raspy voices since Saturday.
The good one is, you don't have to answer unwilling questions, except from your lecturer, and now I totally lost my voice.
The bad one is, I'm still lack of tissue. How I can forget about that crucial thing. Morning and night cold curse.
September supposed to be the month I appreciate about, but maybe not for this year.
This eyes began to hate me for their extra-rarely works. Hang on, dear eyes. Actually I didn't want to do this too, it comes naturally so don't blame on me.

With the file named "Final Assignment Draft" opened in front of you, you're not supposed to be here.
Then I'll go for today.

p.s. Stupid recursion this month : type, delete, type again and become drafts. If only it could be implemented in my Final Assignment Draft.

Another skipped post

HELLO

Does anyone here know how to replace that 'something from the eyes' with another things?
Almost got it every day and now I'm afraid every time the own time comes.
:(

Sense of Poem

HELLO

The first plan is : start writing final assignment draft. But I sink in here, again.
Special for this post, let me interfere my English-post-habit.
This poem written by @fahdisme in Bahasa Indonesia with some literary work of M.I.I.
For you who don't have any idea about it, let Google translate it for you, or you can ask me personally to translate it.

***

Ziarah Ingatan

Kita bisa membuang ingatan, tapi tak bisa menolak kenangan.

Sebab tak semua yang kita ingat akan kita kenang, tapi semua yang kita kenang tersimpan baik dalam ingatan.

Kau tahu?

Ziarah bukan saja bagi mereka yang sudah tiada.

Kadang - kadang yang paling sering kita lupakan justru kenangan - kenangan indah bersama mereka yang masih hidup.

Maka kenanglah, lalu lakukan ziarah bagi mereka yang hidup, sebelum mereka pergi.

Tentang hidupku, tentang segala hal dari diriku yang bersinggungan dengan dirimu,

terima kasih dan maaf.

Semoga segala kebaikanmu..menjelma tangga menuju surga.

***

For me, who can't write a poem and have no sense of poem at all, this piece is really, really make a sense.
You will dignify the memory of those whose still living. You are.
Well, enough and let's do another thing that we should do, catch you later.

p.s. Lack of tissue. Then tissue become a crucial thing.

Please, just don't read it.

HELLO

Bloogy, we met in the time where it should be, 01.32 a.m., and I can't sleep again.
This post will reveal my weakness, if you hate this kind of thing, please don't read it.
Or if you read it, please just forget or pretend you didn't read anything.
Thank you.

***

"Sometimes we get sad about things and we don't like to tell other people that we are sad about them.

We like to keep it a secret.

Or sometimes, we are sad but we really don't know why we are sad, so we say we aren't sad but we really are."

-Mark Haddon

It's been more than a week, and at first I think it will be alright.
Until now, I restrained my self from act so desperately or anything miserable in front of those people and you, just act usual like nothing happened.
I won't deny that I shed something from the eyes since that day.
But like you said, it needs time.

So, may I stay up late, and let it comes again, tonight or maybe for a few nights after?
I promise, in the next day, I'll be okay in front of you and all of those people.
Please don't mind.

Spirit of September

HELLO

And hello to you September, the month which popular enough to become song titles.
I love September not because I were born in this month.
I like the name, September.
That's one reason why the tagline of this blog is, "I'll give you my September."

Well, what?
It's my 4th year, and I must be serious for doing this academic things.
Seems like have no spirit at all for doing it, I don't know why but I need to get up.

Yes, I put an end of something precious.
Extremely sad, although I look fine and welcome faking time.
Maybe this is one of the reason why, but it doesn't really matter.
I can inspirit my self.
And you know that you're not that weak :)

Here you go, senior year!

p.s. Dare for Distance is addictive. Can't stop playing it, like a kind of heroine. Help.

Dare for Distance

HELLO

It's my 4th year,

Last day of August, last day of internship.

Since today is my last day, works = coming up more. Well, at least I know that deadliners is not just for internees, but also for the supervisor.

Currently listening (again) to this song, Dare for Distance by Never Shout Never!

No specific lyrics meaning, only the melody.

I feel like remember my first year moment entered this college life. 

Reading back my archive from August 2009 until November 2010.

What was that like?

Independent, no restrain, full of spirit doing anything, how I really want to be a color guard, how I want to be active in a lot of college activities, how I dance because I just love it, how I practiced hard because I just like to do it, how I met a lot of new people, how I met an artsy man, how I met that amazing pompomboys team, how I have more time to hanging out, how I cry and survive from the bad marks, how I miss that antisocial class, how I laugh, how I passed the 18th birthday, how I make life-map, how I went everywhere alone, how I miss the holiday that never been used for, how I want to come back home, how I end up with having no besties in here, how I fake, how I cry alone in my room, and... another moments, a lot of it.

It was great, although I feel sad every time I hear this song.

What I really miss is, where is the pure spirit gone?

I miss that, doing something that I really want to.

And I know that reality is really won't wait for it. Welcome new reality.

Hey there

HELLO

Won't talking too much in here but,
I'm glad to have you all this time and thank you for every lesson learned, no matter what.
I'm sorry for all the bad things happened that can't be forget easily, though sorry won't be enough, I really mean it.
Soon, i'll leave any sadness or insincerely because I have to let it go sooner or later and replacing it with memories.
All the best for us and good luck :)

p.s. it's okay to be cheesy, sometimes, right?

Rainbow Family

HELLO

Kinda late but, Happy Eid Mubarak 1433 H :)
I'm sorry for all mistakes I made in the past.
I haven't send greetings for some friends because my phone is having trouble past few days.
And here a pic of my big-super-fascinating Satmoko family.
The theme of this year is rainbow, as you can see in this pic.
Because rainbow cake (or everything about rainbow - rainbow cookies, rainbow macaroons, rainbow blablabla) is so mainstream today, so we took that too.

p.s. Well, some of my cousins are available right now, mind to join my family? :p But I'm sure it wouldn't be that easy. Look at those family barricade, you sure you could overcome it? haha

Are you happy?

HELLO

Start to breathe and fake a smile

It's all the same after a while

(Come Back Down - Lifehouse)

***

The lyrics of the song above is sound familiar with someone's life, guess you know who is it.
So, I see people around me are so happy with their life. Seeing others' happiness is an awesome thing, you can feel it that they're happy, and I like it, I appreciate it.
But let's ask the basic question to yourself,

"Are you happy now?"

What would you answer? Are you really that happy?

"You're not forcing yourself to be happy, don't you?"


What would you answer? Are you forcing yourself, to be happy?

Well just answer it, If you sure enough, it's not hard answer questions type.
If you're happy, be grateful. If not, everyone deserves to be happy.
We deserve it, I deserve it.
And you too, you deserve to be happy.
So, please.

p.s. Yes I'm happy, but no, maybe I'm not.

Eat this stupidity #3

HELLO

21 and counting, happy grow older, grandma-in-need!

Growing old is mandatory, but growing up is optional.

So, what will you choose?

-Chili Davis

Sincerely,
Us.

August Sarcasm

HELLO


Well, I leave July with out celebration at all.
Past few days is just like a catastrophe. For 2 sleepless days, for 2 skeptical days, for another day which just like little bugs crawling inside your head.
Boredom.
Boredom.
Got my banana milk, flung my self on sofa, open the laptop, and wear glasses. I left Enterprise Architect, I left Pinnacle, I left Word, just you.
Read my blog list, and I found it on my friend's blog :


"Living with you, such as breathing only with carbon dioxide."
(ASB, 2009)


He said that it was his sadness quotation, but I think sarcasm is suit better and depend on who said it.
No wonder if the reply is, "Same here. You're not the only one who breath only with carbon dioxide."
Knock out.

Image source : Google

What we breath, is it really oxygen? or carbon dioxide coated with oxygen?
Nevertheless, who cares?


p.s. No offense, August.

Who is the Main Actor?

HELLO


Middle of the night, open my Reca to send email to some friends.
Then I stuck in this,


"Every time you complain about your life, remember you're not the only one who has problems. Everybody does."
-Wilson Kanadi


Absolutely agree.
Nowadays people always think that they're the main actor of life. Dramatic life, assume that you are the most suffer peep with your huge problems, egoism among other, assume something without confirmation, social life publicity, hiding in your comfort zone, etc.


While the fact is, yes, maybe you are the main actor on stage named "your world".
But, you know people? You're only a supporting actor on the other stage. Or maybe you're nothing.
Don't ever think that it has to be you. It's not always about you.
So why you don't even care?

p.s. Judgement, who said? This is a self-reflection. And a simple satire for you, who read this.

Thousands of Papers

HELLO


This weekend I'm home to be with family when Ramadhan is coming.
Happy fasting for those who's celebrate it :)
Yesterday I've become a tester for the new product in my family clinic.
And now, I'm sorting thousands of papers for my dad's dissertation. Sorting it, grouping it, writing the title of notes, then packing it.
Thousands of papers about medical, cancer, cell, nicotine, free radicals, etc. Doing this somehow make me remember about my old passion was, being a doctor. Haha forget that.

Thousands of papers

Well, It's still 9.408 papers remaining, wish me luck!


p.s. But, by that thousands of papers, how many trees needed? :(

iTunes Memories Playlist

HELLO


"Deadline is on Monday evening, please send it to my e-mail."


He leave after he said it, my mentor.
Open the laptop, open Enterprise Architect, Open SQL Development, Open Microsoft Word, open Chrome, and always, open iTunes.

Talking about iTunes, there is one special playlist on there.
Obviously, it's a playlist contains tracks with some memories behind it.
The count for one song is approximately more than 100.
Simply, it's a song that -maybe- I won't be bored to listen it. But -maybe- for some song, I won't ever hear it again after the event.
Here some that trapped in my playlist, I give you randomly 10 of them :

• Iridescent - Linkin Park
• Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
• I Miss You - Blink 182
• Tonight - FM Static
• Wherever You Will Go - The Calling
• You and Me - Lifehouse
• Emily - From First to Last
• Somebody That I Used to Know - Walk Off the Earth (Gotye cover)
• Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
• The Saddest Song - The Ataris

Maybe we have the same song to remember?

Or maybe we have the same story behind?

Let me hear.

p.s. Some of it yes, about people. Some of it just about pieces of life. Some of it is good to remember, while the other is not.

Shut Down

HELLO


Daily work routines.
Somehow you'll feel bored or stuck about your assignments then doing sort kind of distraction like what I did below.

Is it possible not to sit down in front of your laptop for at least 8 hours on work then still continue the rest at home?
I need some fresh air.
And you too, I'll shut you down soon. Don't worry.


p.s. Celebrate for everyday milk, from banana to vanilla, from peach to mango. One shot bottle, please.

Have you ever write your own song?

HELLO


I admit that I have no talent in music, but I'm interested in it.
The one I respect the most is people who can create a great song.
Maybe a lot of artist could sing well, but have you ever wonder how to create that piece of song?
There must be some of your favorite songs and some of it reflects you perfectly.

Have you ever write your own song?


Inspired by Ihcod Agedas, I started to make my own song.
When I was in high school I made my first amateur bad-stupid song.
I didn't give it a name, I didn't record it, I lost the chord note, and I forgot the lyrics.
What I remember is it started in C and it's about -ehm, stupid love song. (yeah, I hear your laugh, go with it)
Totally a mess.


Then I create another songs.
About friends, unspoken one, life, losing friends (most painful one) , stupid love again, birthday, rain, anything, etc
Some of it, I just make it for myself and the other is for some people out there.
I wrote the lyrics, I try it on guitar and keyboard, I recorded it on my phone. But now it's all lost because I lost my memory card, haha.


Writing a song is just like writing you, dear bloogy.
I told a story but with different way.
And just like a song from Something About Lola : The Best Part of Writing A Song is to Named It, you know what's my pleasure in writing a song.


And.. what was my song like?
Terrible, you won't ever hear it. Gladly it was deleted. Bad voice, amateur guitar - keyboard skill, noise everywhere.
You know that I have no talent in music, right? haha
I think you could make a better one. Are you interested?
It would be an honor for me to hear a song that made by yourself, totally respect it.


p.s. Maybe, just maybe, I'll make a song again, after all.

Я тоскую без Вас!

Привет, Диа - здесь!


Это спустя год после поворотного момента.
Я мисс Рассиа, особенно Новосибирск.
Я мисс Светлана, Мама, Синий Лагерь Птицы, Sergio, Manuel, Лидеры, и все дети со всех сезонов.
Спасибо за все большие воспоминания.
Когда-нибудь, я вернусь :)

  

        

    

    

    

  

Привет из Индонезии,
Диа

p.s. Плохая российская Грамматика. Я сожалею о :p