It's not always like what it seem

HELLO

It's is 00.51 a.m and  this is a random post between the hectic time of tasks,

I rest my eyes for a moment and I found it.

Maybe some people doubted about our relationship, but it's not always like what it seem.

Well, you know what I mean, I'm not expert in making words.

ps. this pic taken by ucup on February 17th 2011 after TC IOMBC, it use for backdrop.

It almost blows up

HELLO


I forget the last time I got angry in front of the people.
But today, it blows up, even though it's not in front of many people because it just me in my room with the pity victim : teddy-bear (I'm sorry, bear. My deep regret)


Mad and emotion.
It buried for a long time because of soooo many reason then I can't handle it anymore.
I hate the feeling of resist the emotion. It almost blows up.
I'm not showing the emotion with the others but then someone said,


"Resist your emotion, now go home then wudhu."


Then I'm going home and wudhu like my friend's suggestion.
It feels better, a bit.
Maybe I should take a nap for a while because I don't have any concentration for doing my tasks.
Preparing my self to fix it tomorrow.
Everything's gonna be okay (cliche).


And sorry for dumped it all to you, dear blog :(

General Question

HELLO


"Is everything's okay ?"

(No. I'm not okay.)
"Yes."

Box of 19

HELLO


Well, hello.
Everythings going fine here with a bit contrary but still handled.


Drop the sight in the purple life map which I made when I was in the first year of college.
It wrote in the box of 19 :
-Join Colour Guard National Competition
-Being active in HMIF
-Going Exchange.
I made it one and a half year ago, still 17 going 18. All I wrote just something that I called 'dream'.


'Join Colour Guard National Competition'
IOMBC 2011. I did it finally, with the committee's hard work for our desire, it bring me an amazing team I ever had. Despite it only takes 1 months but I never regret for get into this guard team. 


'Being active in HMIF'
Here goes for my student association, even though I'm not the type of activist but I will give my best for it.


'Going Exchange'
Never imagine that it will be realize soon. Finally I matched with AIESEC NSU Russia. Hope the project and everythings about preparation will going well. I'll see you this June, Novosibirsk. 


"You dream, you write, you realize."


Well, I can't wait for realizing my box of 20 soon.




p.s. You can do it too. Just try :)