5 random songs

HELLO

i'm sorry for left you cold, bloggy.
hmm. finally i made up my last exam on last sunday. geez
now i'm just waiting for the result. hahahaha i'm nervoussss bby, hope it will be a good news. xp

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look, i'll play 5 random songs in my playlist, then i'll write what's on my mind when i listened to the songs. okay. hha

( song played Deep - Binocular )

what's on my mind ? guess. hha
i'm very very excited because next wednesday on July 29th 2009 we'll have PADEPOKAN ON THE BEACH ! yeaaay ! :D
located in Bandengan Beach, Jepara.
we called it farewell session two. hhi
many problems comes but it had cleared.
i can't waiiit my amazing guys and girls ! :D

( song played Forever by Killing Me Inside )

my bad.
adore someone adorable.
complicated and never be reach (i know, i know, i'm just ordinary).
haha, hurt.

( song played Apologize by One Republic )

i remember one thing.
look, i'm comfort with my silly-lovey-life (which already over) now.
feel : free. independent. no burden.
i think the past is just over, not forever.
so, what must i say...maybe bye and be careful on your way ? hha

(song played Bestfriend by Toybox )

friendship and togetherness.
besties all along (yes, you two my dear :D )
i'll be missing you.
thank you for... everything.
i can't say anything more, you both just priceless.

( song played Vulnerable by Secondhand Serenade )

me. hha
i always listens this song when i feel like i'm a coward, not confident, or feel i'm just an ordinary not supreme highclass extraordinary peep like others.
the chorus : ".. I'll make it better than it ever was." is pushing me not to think that i'm not invicible. hhe
i'm an ordinary who can do extraordinary things ! :)

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okay game over. hha
thank you for reading this silly-notes.
see yaa balabala :)

p.s. i hate to see your smile because it makes me want to see it again. hhi xp

it would ended soon

HELLO

sometimes love feels right or sometimes it's wrong.
i'm one of the people who unconditionally in a stuck open relationship
and i'm feel no longer with it at all.

geez, i'm not on the mood to tell you about my current love story, you know.
there is nothing happen between us, okay.
no more because of the 'third people' or something we've gotta do.
so, uhm..

being in undefined relationship for approximatelly one year (or more) isn't short time called.
at first started, it was going great.
everyday just gone gone away.
routine activities, bla bla bla.. b**ed
when i realized,
i'm not feel it anymore.

i'm tired..

now, i just want to be free.
free for thinking anything about love for a while.
because my mind filled up with friendship and other things except you.
yes. it's not a good reason, i know.

would you mind to set me free ?
and let's make a good friend.
thank you for your kindness and sorry for everything.

...hope you know.
( until it posted, i haven't told it to the people i mean *what a coward )
i'm messed up of everything.

p.s. i know i'm the coward and selfish one, but this is what i feel now.

4th award

HELLO !

thank you for

MAYANG

who gave me this award,
i love your blog too, dear :)

and i will continue this award to...
Ippa
Zulfi
Nayla
Ridho
Icha

get your prize then :)

Padepokan, highschool best moment

HELLO

i'm sorry for late update because i don't know what i'll write first here.
i've sooo many things that i want to describe.
then i choose this topic,

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most people said that, 'highschool is the best moment ever'.
do you think so ? i did.

my padepokan class farewell party has held in Bandungan, last saturday 'till sunday (11 - 12 July 2009) in the same villa when i had my middle highschool class farewell party last year.
hey buddies, i think that was 'the best moment ever' in my highschool time.
yes. it was.

like usual farewell party, we share, we sing, we laugh, we had lot of jokes, taking so many pics, cooking together, BBQ party continue with bonfire time, and the last.. 'afterthought time'.
it...was...touchfull.
i can't describe how amazed it was.

the night when our tears become the witness.
we talked open-minded, we shared, we apologized for the faults, we remember the moment of this 1 year, we cried, we sang along, we gave hugs each other and sank into our ambience.
aaaarghh, this make me miss them more and more :(

from the night talks, nyak & i confess & apologize to andika about our big faults to him, and the result was unsuspectly out from our think.
he approved our apologize and just let it go like nothing happened. how kind.. 
we're seriously sorry... :(

i can't tell you for the details because it'll need so many pages.
but i'll type some words that stick into my mind,

" if you think that you'll miss your friends after 2-3 days from now, i have already thought it for long time ago." - ff

"don't push someone to get along our way, but push ourself to the their ways." -fw

" we won't ever realize how important friends are, until we lost them. " -dm

*sigh*
i really, really love & miss you PADEPOKAN. thank you for the  unforgetable year.
we are family and this is my best class ever after.
our togetherness lasts forever.

I LOVE YOU...

hugs & kisses,

p.s. this post dedicated to you all, my amazing guys. i miss you. hiks ;(