and thank you for your smile today

HELLO

So it was 5 p.m. after college hours.
Met up with my friend there and I saw you on the backside, joking with your friend.

I should have forget it from long time ago, but,
Rush-rush-rush. I'm in the mood of rush.
This eyes just focused on you, while I was hidding behind my friends.
and, oh - you smile, with her again.

I was trying to let it go by joining their (my friends) joke whatever it was so cruel like 'lifting your friend as a cow then throw it away'. CRUEL.
Pretending not seeing you there.
But you came here, closely. Speaking with my friend.
First we're just talking as usual and joking of course.
Then you asked me,

" Are you not in the mood ? What happened ? Tell me, haha. Hey, I'm serious. "

I saw deeply into your eyes, I wanna say " It's because of you, stupid ! " but I realize that is a very bad idea to do.

" No, I'm just in a rush mood, " I throw my sight out.
" I think I'm kind enough for asking you but you ignore me like this. ckckck "

Then he talked with my friend about something freak and funny about a girl that made me laugh out loud.
So he said,

" Hey, you're laugh afterall. So we (he & my friend) are successfully for turn your mood good again, "
He smiled.

***

So it was evening and would be raining.
But it doesn't matter,
and thank you for your smile today.

p.s. you can guess, is it trully happened or just in my imagination :p

You're gonna be okay, you're not that weak

HELLO

First of December, 2009.

Most of you were waiting for December coming.
Yes, you've said it everywhere, on Twitter, Facebook, Plurk, etc. Even you weren't say it, I think you'll say 'yes' for the first statement.

Why waiting for December ?

Me, included to a person who isn't pay much attention of 'What month is it ?' or 'Is it already December ?' and so on.
Maybe December has it own speciality for some people, May-be.
But after people mentioned #decemberwish on their Twitter just now, something came up in my mind.

What is December for me ?

My December was welcoming by rain.
Yeah. Rain (for wheater) and 'rain' (reflection of the day).
I'm not talking about love.
...okay. Yes, I got a bad mark again, twice. Now is Calculus turn.
Not as bad as Physics last exam, but yeah you-know-that.
Do you feel bored if I'm talking about my mark again ? Hope you're not. I'm in a rush mood now. Absolutely.
(I don't know people whom I must discuss with, so here the top. You're my blog, right ? And I'm freely doing what i gotta do. )
My besties here got perfect score, 100 - 96 - 80-etc. They're great, They got their best try.


*Take a breath*

How December make my rainy day ?

With blank and unconditional mind after that, sentence like " Come on, Sasri. Cheer up, you'll do better next ! " or " This is not the end of your journey, you still have Final Exam ! " until the most unhelped one, " You must learn harder, " aren't help at all.
And it was rain that evening. Cold and dark.
Fulfilled by worried thingy, complicated, and rush.
Until I saw a tweet on my timeline, form TheHeartBox.
" You're gonna be okay, you're not that weak. "
...and sure,
It successfully flipped my mood.
So-What ?
I'm gonna be okay, because I'm not that weak.
I won't be broke by thingy like this.
Have I ever said that " It's not how much you've ever failed, but how much you get up and try again. " ?
Yes, I'm not that weak.
I'm not that weak.
I'm gonna be okay.
I'm gonna be okay.
I'm gonna be okay !

p.s. At least, December have it own meaning for me, now.