Personal Space

HELLO

Dear,

For some reason, I pull myself out of society. It's hardly to say that I've to do something I can't talk to so that I should take my step out from some circles. If you know me, I'm that kind of person who really concern about people's view towards me and even over-concern or over-thinking about it. Hence, when I feels like they won't think about it so much,  I can slowly walk away. Beside, invisible is already glued on my back, so why do I even care?

After all, it just about a choice, a preference, a tendency, a prioritization. I can feel uncomfortable easily about something related to it, although it was just a joke. Therefore, it's better to avoid that kind of conversation and try to blew it away if it just happened. If you don't know about it yet, I'm telling you now, so it's clear.

Hey bloogy, do you know about the term "personal space" among people? Personal space is a region surrounding a person which they regard as psychologically theirs. That it is. In my case, that it is. It is inside the personal space so I just don't want to talk about it.

Just..don't.


p.s. Thank you for your understanding, bloogy. Guess I'm talking too much with a lot of bad grammar in here.

I jumped

HELLO

As person, sometimes we need to wash up our mind. Either we do it literally or essentially to redefine the boundary, to clean up the wound, and to getting somewhere of nowhere.

Self-picture taken with Aquapix

So I jumped into the water.

Lack of Gratitude

HELLO

After having conversation with the other fighter, I smell 'lack of gratitude' inside it.
As we know that everybody has their-own-final-project-problems.
And it's same with life, you shouldn't positioning your self like you have the most troublesome final project ever. If you did, oh how less gratitude you people..  and how less gratitude I am.

Like what I've said to my self, just be grateful.

p.s. Less than 11 weeks before the D-Day, high kick!

Lighten up!

HELLO

"What are you, in the army? Lighten up, little lady."
-NH

Who will forget that quotable mind-blowing after answering your question, "What are you up to?"
But thanks for it, at least we know that we should find the lightener by ourselves. And maybe there is something we realize, someone we talked to, or anything to done in minutes while we working on it on the past four years.

"Lighten up"

Now without 'the little lady' following behind. It was, but it just was. We grow anyway. At least, we can still have somebody-thing for lighten us up, for lighten me up, for lighten you up.

Well, good day people. Lighten up!

p.s Just lighten your self.

Night sunflower

HELLO

Sunflower in the night.
Lately people asked me about this pic. It was taken in Rooftop Garden, Paris Van Java Bandung.
Yes, there is sunflower spot there and yes, feel free to enter.
No, it's not blossom every single time and no, no kind of advertisement here.

Getting out from one circle and make yourself vulnerable is the compensation of letting yourself doing your big plan. Cut the unimportant things, do something faster, and concentrate better is your way to get it. Maybe of the skeptic act I've done to several things -and peeps. Maybe I need to reconstruct my self to be more discipline, more aware, and firmer. Maybe because of symphaty and the role of keeping the relation good between people.

Or maybe we just need to break between the super hectic time,
and maybe that's why there's the need of you.

p.s. It's comin', dude. Really.

Eat this stupidity #6

HELLO

(February 14, 2013)

Happy grow older, kid!
Welcome to 21 lines, say goodbye to the teenager slave.
Stick with your cutie TED(dy), baloony, and pinky sensation on your early morning.

The stupid moment is the moment you can't ever forget,

For the stupidity and your day, vice versa.

***

Red, Yellow, Green!

Sincerely,
Us.

Suddenly September

HELLO

So, last night was the anniversary of Ganexpo. It's been a year! Time flies really fast.
We met although it was uncompleted, but it was great. Great team, great friends, great pizzas. After eat, Akka said, "Let's go to Disctarra!" It's been an age since the last time I visit that place. So we went there and this album cover got me first:

First, I love the name. Suddenly September.
Second, I like the packaging, it's simple and the hand writings - color illustration.
Third, the price is affordable, only 25k.

Then I went to cashier and bought it. Totally a random CD to listen.
"You sure you won't try to listen it first in here?" Akka said.
"No, I prefer to listen it later."

So, I just know that this band already covered some songs in Youtube. Formed on 2005 with the formation of three: vocal, drum, saxophone (like the cover illustration literally). You can check their channel here or you can just visit their Sound Cloud account here. This is their first album which released on the last September.

Fyi, I'm not a type of music reviewer. Well, this band could classified as a fun pop-jazz band, sweet vocal, sexy saxophone, nice song arrangement. Almost all the song is in Bahasa, but some mixed with English. I recommend some tracks that you should listen first : Suddenly September, Cerita Tentang Cinta, and Berhenti Saja. Although it isn't my favorite genre but this album is worth to buy.

Let's go mainstream, buy 1 CD per month and try to listen for it.

Where were you after all this time?

HELLO

(Actually I don't like the mello drama side who wrote this post, but let her speak.)

I feel dumped, like an anti-social person who don't want to leave the comfort zone, although just hanging out and greet some friends from outer circle, or making a new friend. Seems like a social-climber type, but no, not at all.
I'm bored, it's like I'm making a hive, going nowhere, just stay and not moving. The social interaction restricted to friends or people with the same condition at this time, which is, the academics, the part-time teams, and the one who cares.

"Where were you after all this time?"

Let's just answer that critical question with some sheer smile, while inside you answered "I just don't belong there anymore.."
And the seeker's face shown like "You and your stupid assumption."
Then you still continue your argument, "....I'm out of circle." when they thought maybe your brain get damaged or something.
At that time, I think you would literally do the 'paint the wall with my brain' statement.

The point is,
I miss making new friends and I miss being with some circle of friends.
That's shorter than I thought.
But choice is choice, priority is priority.
Kick you later.

p.s. Short brain damage called forget. I forget that I've ever wrote this post.

The alter ego

HELLO

It closed and restricted just for invited people.
I changed the identical place and key(s), because some people just busting around without any permission, break the key, over curiosity, visit often behind my back, like what you really know about other's business. Well, no wonder that you can talk and keep commenting like you know everything.
Thanks for admitting (after being forced). Thanks I'm not yell and hit you right on your face (though I really, really want to do that at the time).

The current invitation is still valid. Just re-ask me directly, if you're the one I invited and only if you still want to come. I'm not forcing you.

A goal is a dream with deadline and feasible plan

HELLO

No happy new year in here, almost left you more than a month, kindly sorry.
Long post, hope you don't mind.

This should be my last semester for being an undergraduate student. Time flies, I remember the post I made for the joy of graduation and acceptance in my campus about 3,5 years ago. Now less than 6 months, I must be ready to finish my study. Well, although I still continue to get my master here (amin), but let's make it as the short-term goal right now.

No one said that it will be easy, but it won't be that hard, you know.
There's many things I must stand for to get a line with the life-line I decided. Classic academic story like fulfill the minimum requirement of undergraduate GPA to get the fast track scholarship so that I can continue my master. Well, I can't breath with ease yet.

Since the first time I choose this way, I know that I must work harder than everyone else. Harder and even harder. Mostly, they already have their safe condition since the first year, while I'm not. That's my consequence of ruining my first year to get the social activity life and freshmen euphoria. I cries often since the first year until the beginning of second year only because of the bad marks. I'm so weak in math (for sure, I'm not lying), logic, and I'm not interested on electrical neither do programming. Wrong placement of faculty? Absolutely. Some of you've already know that actually I wanna be a doctor, but I swerved and arrived here. Won't be regret because whatever it was, that's my decision. I'm grateful of it, I'm still trying to overcome it, I have to survive until I finish it, and I'm going to get it soon. Amin.

Final assignment along with fast track program, also with the minimum requirement to get the master scholarship (and part-time job). Bismillah.

p.s. You too, people. Don't give up with your goals no matter how hard it is. A goal is a dream with deadline and feasible plan. So, I'll see you on finish line.