Where were you after all this time?

HELLO

(Actually I don't like the mello drama side who wrote this post, but let her speak.)

I feel dumped, like an anti-social person who don't want to leave the comfort zone, although just hanging out and greet some friends from outer circle, or making a new friend. Seems like a social-climber type, but no, not at all.
I'm bored, it's like I'm making a hive, going nowhere, just stay and not moving. The social interaction restricted to friends or people with the same condition at this time, which is, the academics, the part-time teams, and the one who cares.

"Where were you after all this time?"

Let's just answer that critical question with some sheer smile, while inside you answered "I just don't belong there anymore.."
And the seeker's face shown like "You and your stupid assumption."
Then you still continue your argument, "....I'm out of circle." when they thought maybe your brain get damaged or something.
At that time, I think you would literally do the 'paint the wall with my brain' statement.

The point is,
I miss making new friends and I miss being with some circle of friends.
That's shorter than I thought.
But choice is choice, priority is priority.
Kick you later.

p.s. Short brain damage called forget. I forget that I've ever wrote this post.

The alter ego

HELLO

It closed and restricted just for invited people.
I changed the identical place and key(s), because some people just busting around without any permission, break the key, over curiosity, visit often behind my back, like what you really know about other's business. Well, no wonder that you can talk and keep commenting like you know everything.
Thanks for admitting (after being forced). Thanks I'm not yell and hit you right on your face (though I really, really want to do that at the time).

The current invitation is still valid. Just re-ask me directly, if you're the one I invited and only if you still want to come. I'm not forcing you.

A goal is a dream with deadline and feasible plan

HELLO

No happy new year in here, almost left you more than a month, kindly sorry.
Long post, hope you don't mind.

This should be my last semester for being an undergraduate student. Time flies, I remember the post I made for the joy of graduation and acceptance in my campus about 3,5 years ago. Now less than 6 months, I must be ready to finish my study. Well, although I still continue to get my master here (amin), but let's make it as the short-term goal right now.

No one said that it will be easy, but it won't be that hard, you know.
There's many things I must stand for to get a line with the life-line I decided. Classic academic story like fulfill the minimum requirement of undergraduate GPA to get the fast track scholarship so that I can continue my master. Well, I can't breath with ease yet.

Since the first time I choose this way, I know that I must work harder than everyone else. Harder and even harder. Mostly, they already have their safe condition since the first year, while I'm not. That's my consequence of ruining my first year to get the social activity life and freshmen euphoria. I cries often since the first year until the beginning of second year only because of the bad marks. I'm so weak in math (for sure, I'm not lying), logic, and I'm not interested on electrical neither do programming. Wrong placement of faculty? Absolutely. Some of you've already know that actually I wanna be a doctor, but I swerved and arrived here. Won't be regret because whatever it was, that's my decision. I'm grateful of it, I'm still trying to overcome it, I have to survive until I finish it, and I'm going to get it soon. Amin.

Final assignment along with fast track program, also with the minimum requirement to get the master scholarship (and part-time job). Bismillah.

p.s. You too, people. Don't give up with your goals no matter how hard it is. A goal is a dream with deadline and feasible plan. So, I'll see you on finish line.

Not Over You

HELLO

Good (early) morning, bloogy.
Kind of addicted with this song, Not Over You by Gavin DeGraw.
Well the cover version is better so you better check out this cover videos :

Not Over You - Gavin DeGraw

(Cover By : Alex Goot & Against The Current)

Not Over You - Gavin DeGraw

(Cover By : Kurt Schneider & Max Schneider)

Goot & ATC's version is fun, their voice blending perfectly. But I like Schneider's version more, Max's voice and expression is just priceless. Yes, you go see it first.

But until then

It's alienation I know that much is understood

And I realized

If you ask me, how I'm doin'

I would say I'm doin'' just fine

I would lie and say that you're not on my mind

But I go out and I sit down

At the table set for two

And finally I forced to face the truth

No matter what I say

I'm, not over you

Best part. I smell somewhat reflection in here, super honest one.

The lyrics of this self explanatory song is absolutely uncovered the writer. Good job, Gavin.

p.s. Uncountable replay button clicked.

A Footstep

HELLO

The sweetest thing is, you get a million chance of happiness. Whoever whatever whenever it is, you, in this condition, over receiving it. And you must know what will happen to something excessive? Crumble, crash, in a mess, fall apart. It doesn't mean that you're still alive right now in your place, you sure about it?

A footstep.
Won't hear any reason about how hard it will be, how you loose your current comfy condition, how you apologize, your excuse, your bla-bla-bla between another bla-bla-bla.


A footstep.
July 2013, July 2014.


A footstep.
Are you done yet?

A footstep.
........

Go. You know your desire, your dream.
Because together doesn't mean forever, and vice versa.

A footstep.

p.s. No, Sir. I don't ask for your symphaty, and I'm sure you don't have any intention to give it. For sure.

Eat this stupidity #5

HELLO

(November 21, 2012)
Happy grow older, big fat slave kid!
The moment of stupidity video is over, now you get another master piece.

Falling down between love and career is doesn't matter at all

Because you're still a kid after all.

***

...and happy hunting!

Sincerely,
Us.

People are

HELLO

How's day? Final Assignment is just..............no, forget it.
Just read tonight's babble.

People are busy with their business.
People are hanging around and stop making non-sense things.
People are just lying around the truth.
People are stating their own excuses, cursing, spreading negative.
People with their ability, forcing themselves, know that they're not that health but still tormenting themselves. People in denial, bad hard procrastinator.
And another things that people do, nowadays.

Because nowadays everything is fake.
So why don't you just show the truth while people will see it as a fake?

Cyber fake, self imaging. What do you want to expect?
Don't take every answer as a yes, maybe you just don't realized that the 'yes' thing is only on your pure imagination. What about the people? Have you ever asked something to ensure? Or this small thing is not that too important in your small life?
Real world and imagination is so close today. 
So close, until we don't know, where do we live, actually.

p.s. Didn't get the meaning? Didn't get what do you expect to read in this blog? Natural thing, because I write that on another box. Bye.

Broken Cell Phone

HELLO

So this is the 4th time.
I said, re-installing your cell phone is not the best way. You lost all your data, phone book, BBM contacts, notes, important messages, calendar, media (included pictures, videos, recordings), etc etc although it was my fault that I didn't back up my data routinely.
There's something wrong with the internal software so it was dead and black, no starting up at all.
Though I get this phone from my auntie, but the total service cost is almost same with buying the new one.

Well,
Reach me in another way if you had any business with me.
Paka.

p.s. Guess I should take one more part-time job to overcome the budget.

Invitation

HELLO

Another formal greeting, I set my day by purpose for a couple weeks.
Seems like everything's alright over there, isn't it? Glad to know that, because I haven't seen or heard anything from the original source.

Hey, wanna play a game?
Just a simple guessing game and I invited that one person, only if you want to come over.

"The cyber place is identical, but different land. Knock the door with the words of a song that I made 19 months ago. Welcome to the alter ego."

Well, see ya.

New Box

HELLO

Another bad or good news for you, bloogy.
Because I found some eyes comes here often, I decide to create a new box for the drafts which have been frozen on your cabin. It's fully protected, and I won't post any clues here.
But don't worry, I won't leave you, still love to playing around here.
Smell you around!