Admit

HELLO

I admit that I didn't give maximum effort for doing that thing. I admit that I don't have any interest of it. I admit that I can't understand it as fast as others do. I admit that I often get bad outputs.

I admit that writing it in here won't solve anything. But at least you're the one which I can easily talk to, bloogy. You're the one which won't give me a pat, a sweet words of consolation, a pity stare, a loyal listener, or an optimism support. You're not doing anything, that's what I need.

"I don't believe in tears. So stop crying" - ASB

True.

Let's put more efforts than anyone else, please, my dear self.

Bad Connection, Umbrellas

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I don't have a good relationship with a thing called umbrella. Just bought it (again) on the previous evening and that's the 16th umbrella (let's just say that because I''m not really sure, maybe more than 16) I have in 4 years. Sounds stupid. It means that every year I have +- 4 umbrellas in average. What kind of umbrellas did I ever had? The general cheap one, the transparent one, the black one, the mini one, the one-push model one, the plastic one, the batik one, the checker one, .....a lot.

Proudly show you the top five reasons why I keep losing my umbrella (frequently order).

1. I lost it somewhere
2. I broke it
3. It broke itself
4. My friend broke it
5. Someone stole it

Yeah, enough said about "You know, your total spending for umbrellas is more expensive than your eating budget for a month!" I know that I'm careless about umbrellas. That's why I always amazed by people who have umbrellas for a long-period. Is that you? Well, congrats!

taken from : www.umbrellas4life.com

p.s. Maybe the 17th will come soon, because the 16th has my university logo on it (I bought it on campus) and I don't like it.

Bulb Photography

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So this is a Birthday Bulb Photography by one of my friend Lio in Pulau Pari.

Thank you! :)

This is what you called choosing priority and wasting opportunity,

Two events on the same time. I should try to seek another opportunities.

September should be here, but..

HELLO!

As you know that now I'm famously known as the one who always neglects her blog and keep saying "Sorry I left you cold," all over the time. Yeah, you can burst your laugh for now, bloogy. But only once. One of the stupid thing that I did is, I missed September. Hello, I missed June and July already and now I missed September (which is one of my favorite month) too? Yeah, burst your laugh again.

So, everything is going well. After my latest post about bachelor graduation, now I continue my master in the exactly same major and institute. Everyone is going study abroad and I'm still in here, hey wait- that doesn't really matter because after this hopefully I'll go abroad too. On July 2014 I'll finish my master and welcoming myself to the real world. Pray for me and I'll pray for you too!

On September 28 2013, one of my bestie, Aulia Dwi Nastiti was leaving Indonesia for the next 2 years. She took her master in Lyon, France. You know, she carried her carrier for cabin and it made her looks like turtle -_- I'll be missing you so much nduk. Good luck and see you when we see you :)

Bon courage, Bonne chance! #teletubbieshug

On the next day, this woman turned 22 (well I said  'woman' and it sounds very old). Alhamdulillah and thanks to Allah SWT for still giving me life until now. And thanks for the care for all my family, bestfriends, and friends :) Some snapshots on the day, I haven't take all the picture but yeah here is some.

Bibir Terakhir by Gostip Girls

GRAORADDQWYE@#$^#$ZHHS!!!!! by Masketir

Stalker Mbecky

Kiwi-Mochi Froyo

Tidy room by bhoow, once in a life time :'')

p.s. September should be here, but.. it was here anyway, it doesn't go anywhere :)

Eat This Stupidity #7

HELLO

(August 7, 2013)

Happy grow older, grandma!
Welcome to the hell of 22, you got your golden ticket so why you are not taking a move? Don't copy the fatty kid for left his present stuck in the corner of the building forever.

We're growing up, but stupidity wont ever get old.

Sincerely,
Us.

p.s. Anyway, did you notice that no more our self-picture for  'Eat this stupidity' episode? Well, we're going through it, but I haven't be able to post here because of our business (each of us) is some kind of different now. Time flies, he said, but stupidity won't ever get old. And wow, it's a long p.s.!

Here we are, Graduation!

HELLO!

By the beginning of August, I just realized that I left you hanging more than 2 months. I missed June and July. Deeply sorry about that, dear bloogy. You know what happened, you know the reason why I should left you cold. June and July 2013 probably has some historical moments for me.

5 June 2013.
It was my thesis defense. Uncountable sleepless night to stake it with so much despair, howl, and worry. But it was running smoothly on the D-day. Relieved, that's the word. Alhamdulillah :)

13 July 2013.
It was my graduation day. That day was mine. Never imagine that I've been college student for about 4 years. People right, time flies and sometimes we never realized. One of my happiest day ever. Family, best friends, and friends give their time to enliven the day. Is there any reason not to be grateful for this kind of happiness? Grateful, that's the word. Alhamdulillah :)

Is that it? No. Not this questions.

"What will you do after graduate? Are you sure about that?"
And after that, just like the post-graduate syndrome, I have a safe-cliche-answer called "I took fast track magister program. No, not study abroad. I'm still here." Hey, I've already make my 60 years life map, but there is fear inside my head. Combination of unsatisfaction, worry, disappointed, anger, and shame. "I'm not really sure."

"What makes you different?"
I could start babbling about something unique or something that differs me from others like my experience, my skills, my ability, bla-bla-bla. But actually the real answer inside my head is, "No, Sir. I still don't know yet."

"Are you deserve this?"
Graduation because of my thesis or graduation because of what I've done this past 4 years? Both of it has the same answer, "No. Not for now," because I still have a lot of works to prove the world that I really deserves it. Graduation is not only for formality.

Well, that was the haver that stuck in my frontal lobe. Like I said, post-graduate syndrome. You'll understand when you experienced it. For the nicely done finishing I would say uncountable thanks for all of you who comes, greet, giving appreciation, and enlighten the day. The day was mine, next is yours! Here is some snapshots.

 

  

That day was mine :)

p.s. Graduation is gratifiying, trust me :)

Lately, I drink coffee

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Image taken from here

Lately, I drink coffee because I need to be awake.
I don't like coffee.
For me, coffee is just like soda and soda is just like alcohol. So I feel like I drink too much alcohol lately.
Dude, I think I'm drunk.

Personal Space

HELLO

Dear,

For some reason, I pull myself out of society. It's hardly to say that I've to do something I can't talk to so that I should take my step out from some circles. If you know me, I'm that kind of person who really concern about people's view towards me and even over-concern or over-thinking about it. Hence, when I feels like they won't think about it so much,  I can slowly walk away. Beside, invisible is already glued on my back, so why do I even care?

After all, it just about a choice, a preference, a tendency, a prioritization. I can feel uncomfortable easily about something related to it, although it was just a joke. Therefore, it's better to avoid that kind of conversation and try to blew it away if it just happened. If you don't know about it yet, I'm telling you now, so it's clear.

Hey bloogy, do you know about the term "personal space" among people? Personal space is a region surrounding a person which they regard as psychologically theirs. That it is. In my case, that it is. It is inside the personal space so I just don't want to talk about it.

Just..don't.


p.s. Thank you for your understanding, bloogy. Guess I'm talking too much with a lot of bad grammar in here.

I jumped

HELLO

As person, sometimes we need to wash up our mind. Either we do it literally or essentially to redefine the boundary, to clean up the wound, and to getting somewhere of nowhere.

Self-picture taken with Aquapix

So I jumped into the water.