Today Flavour

Don't be regret

2012-01-22T06:45:00.000+07:00

HELLO

'Sup?
Finally I have time to write you here, with one topic between a-lot-of-pending-random~~-trashy~~-topics.
Curious?

Last day I have some random time, talking about..well, not about anything, because it was so random. The highlight here is about regret. How classical.

The first idea is start when I said,

"I feel like I'm not doing anything this holiday."

That's because an event as my responsibility which consume most of my holiday time. Even though I made my holiday project plans (like what I wrote here some weeks ago)
Then, this person start counting since the first day of holiday (which was December 19th 2011) and asked

"What are you doing on ....(fill it with date)" one on one, date by date, until today.

I answered briefly. Lastly, this person said,

"See? You've done many things on your holiday. Whatever it is, don't be regret."

Damn.
Guess I've regret so many things in life, about ages, about activity that I choose, about procrastination, about bla-bla-bla-whatever it is.
But never looked, what's exactly I'm doing last days.
What the hell I'm doin'? Bzzt.

After that, like what normal people do, I'm start not to regret anything, even though it's so cliche-classical-just saying syndrome. But hey, why not?
Whatever it is, don't be regret, okay? Nothing to worry about.

p.s. Write it with Somebody that I used to know - Walk off the Earth (Gotye cover). Guess I'm addicted with this song.

Out of zone

2012-01-09T11:20:00.002+07:00

HELLO

It's a rare time sitting with you in the middle of day. Don't you wanna know why?
As always, I wrote here if I have something stuck in my mind and don't have any idea with whom I must talked about it.
Let's talk about zone, what zone? Friend zone.
No, not that "Friend zone" jokes on 9gag. It's purely friend zone with a lot of friends inside it.
I promise no other cheesy things in here, so watch about it.
May I start now? Gonna take a long time.

It's been two years and a half I've known them. Formerly, they're my comfort zone in here, college life.
Why I said 'formerly'? Because everything changes.
It's not their fault at all, it's a choice.
But more here, there's something wrong here.
Me.

Slap me, but am I wrong if I think that I'm already 'out' of their zone?
Yes, you can slap me or do anything what you like. Go on.
Maybe they think, it's non-sense.
Maybe they think, I'm over thinking about it.
Maybe they're not think about it at all. Not at all.

I'm shrink from this zone.
Feel like vulnerable, invisible.
I'm just laughed bitterly when I remember it or see what they're doing there and I'm here.
Not their fault, it's a choice.

Is it because unconsciously I pull away from them and doing other activity outside of the circle?
I reticent to go back there again because I don't understand.
Maybe yes, I'm over thinking it when I feel different with their views, when I didn't get the joke, when I didn't laugh out loud or I didn't feel same rhythm of the breath in this band.
I mad with my self, I want to go back to the times when it's formerly..
Call me a coward, it's okay.

Guess you'll give me advice like "Why don't you try to go back entering ~~their~~ your zone because not everyone thinks the same as you think before?"
or "Let it flow, don't over thinking it, just enjoy the one which is the most comfortable with you now."
or "They're OK without you, just go on."
or "Why so serious? Take it easy."

I wrote it not to ask for yearning, or advice, or anything else.
Just speak out what's on my mind because it's kinda hurts inside.
My dear bloogy, you must be irritated because seems like I'm so weak..lots of complains...sigh everywhere.. I know.
That's why I hate it.

Last, I'm sorry for anything.
Just because I don't understand doesn't necessarily mean that I don't care, my dear friends.
I just miss you, geeks :(

p.s. Friends-thingy is always forced the tears to come out. Just like now.

Scrap Wall

2012-01-05T10:07:00.003+07:00

HELLO

Do you sink in the boredom? Boring time on holiday because you're not doing anything or just cuddle in your bed with blanket covering you and cellphone in your hand?
Wanna go somewhere but you're just too lazy to move?
Wasting your time with social networking, buffering youtube, eat, sleep, pee, eat sleep, and pee again?
Pathethic, you know. It's holiday, why you don't start for doing something different with your daily act?

Start from the idea of making a scrap book containing pictures of people in my life, but I don't want the ordinary one. So I made it, just called it Scrap Wall (not creative I know) because I display it on the wall. Simple -eh?
Here we go,
Begin with selecting thousands pictures of people around me, then edit the style so each of the photos is look like taken from polaroid camera -ehehe (Just because I want it so bad, but I don't have enough money to buy). Yayaya I know it's kinda weird.
I wrote some words on each pictures to describe it.
The concept is like hanging clothes on the string.

Select photos, edit, print, cut, clip it on mattress threads, hang it on the wall.
And here it is:

Messy fake-polaroid photos, almost a hundred.

Some Part.

Different Angle, you'll see STI there.

Label : Familia

Other side

I divide it into some parts, like le me, family, besties, friends for life, stupidity, dancers, Russia, CG, MBWG, STI, and HMIF.
People right, you'll see memories through a picture.
The Scrap Wall I made is not well-arranged, but satisfied enough.
Scrap Wall Holiday Project : accomplished!
Next? :)

p.s. Do you want to try some? Different style, maybe? :)

She isn't me

2012-01-03T06:03:00.004+07:00

HELLO

I wrote it when the sun start to rise, it's about half past five in the morning. A bit cold here *sneeze. Tissue please, thanks.
Feeling unusual, my dear bloogy? Do you miss the cold and darkness in the night?
And happy new year, although it's already late.

What if-no, we're not going down today.
Sometimes I just want to sit back and relax, drink hot milk, playlist on my ears, read my favorite book or dance my fingers on easel. No time limit and fly your mind.
No border, no bound, you're free to express anything.
Maybe it's heaven version 0.01

Skip that.
To be honest, I'm sad-or worried-or disappointed with myself.
Do you remember my favorite quote : "You're gonna be okay, you're not that weak?"
Seems like I ruin that statement with something that shouldn't be necessary.
For example, at that time I have so many task to do in the 4 or more different activity. It's classical. I've been there so many times since I entered college life.
I always said to myself that I don't need to feel tired or complain every time about my job because that's my choice.
"Finish what you've start!"
And I see, I don't like see myself who is start complaining every time I feel under pressure.
Who is she? I see someone not me. She isn't me.
That's why, I hope that from now, I could control myself better.
You said stop complaining all time to others, you should do it first, dear myself.
Just remember it.

Sorry for heavy content, and sunlight have already comes to my window.
Make some tea and enjoy your morning, everyone.

p.s. Something comes to my mind, I have to fly it somewhere.

Here's to another year of experience

2011-12-31T22:53:00.001+07:00

HELLO

So we're in the end of 2011?
Time fly so fast. Living in a year but never feeling an exactly year.
What the hell I'm doing in the past of this year?

Like mainstream people do, they wrote about #2011memories or #thx2011 or #2012wish on their timeline for remembering what they have done in 2011 and what would they do in 2012.
Flash back, kaleidoscope.
Then it replace with resolution, rebirth, something new.
I just the same. But as usual, don't expect me to write in here or anywhere else. Would you accept my apology, dear bloogy? I got it as a yes.

New year eve?
My super family around me, long chit-chat, candle (real candle) light dinner, pray, laughter.
Who needs anything else?

Well, here's to another year of experience.
Formality, aproximately in 1 hour from now : Good Bye 2011 and Welcome 2012.

p.s. Finally I can drive after wasted my time for about 20 years.
p.s.s Whatever the comments is, but, at least I can drive.

Pop Art Painting

2011-12-24T11:00:00.004+07:00

HELLO

Finally, I'm back to the place called home. It's a victory.. (applause please)
Because of the limited time so I made 'Holiday Project List' ! (applause again, please)
Okay wait, did you said that it's just a word and I would never finish all the list?
No, my dear. You're wrong. I bet it, I'll do it in a short time of holiday.

"When is the last time you did something for the first time?"

From that statement, I've decided what will I do.
And no, I won't write the list here, but I'll tell you some project that I've done.
A few days ago, my mom and dad have their 21th wedding anniversary. Oh and there was Mother's day on 22th December.
Randomly, I made it, Pop Art Painting for the gift.
Why? Because video is too mainstream (for me) so I decided to make another one.
Actually, it's not a real pop art because I think it's kinda amateur but yeah, satisfied enough with the result.
It took almost one day for finishing 2 paintings.
When I did this, my old passion comes up, but well it doesn't matter.
So here it is :

Pop Art Painting : Mother's Day

(Canvas 30x40 cm, Acrylic)

Pop Art Painting : Happy 21th Wedding Anniversary

(Canvas 30x40 cm, Acrylic)

Not that good, but whatever.
Anyway, one mission accomplished.
Next?

p.s. I've a secret random project of stupidity (about them) but it's impossible to post in here, maybe later hehe

Holiday scent

2011-12-21T02:43:00.002+07:00

HELLO

Holiday scent is coming! Are you excited?
I think this semester passed quickly, it's like just a few moment after I came back from Russia but now we're in the end of semester.
No matter what, as usual, holiday is not always gonna be a pure holiday.
So many tasks to do and some tasks may get you frustrated, but hey! It's holiday!
Just relax even it just for a moment :)

So before the end of 2011,
Never think why stupidity is always crawls in.
Impulsive, as usual.
You'll never know about random time except you get through this.

Enjoy your time, happy holiday! :)

p.s. Guess how many holiday project that I'll resolve?

It's not about the essence

2011-12-19T18:14:00.003+07:00

HELLO

So exams is over, wish for the best result and reach my target.
Randomly, I'm writing you some of my depressed.
Today is not good. Not good.
I talk about stupidity, not you. Don't praise yourself.
Having (some) conflict again, I don't like it and I don't want to make it far enough.
The important things in a friendship is not about essence, but how we're going through this with our own way.
Please understand, we shouldn't be like this.
Let's be normal, kids.

***

Out from stupidity,
You know, the closer to the date of the mark, I'm not even happier.
Not mainstream, because for normal people, they should be happy, but not for me. Wonder why.
People said, I must be grateful.
People congratulates me.
But why I'm not even happier?
Seems like I want to skip all the things and make it free.

Tired?
I don't want to say that word, I promise myself.
But for now, it almost, almost the limit.

Would somebody mind to let me free?
Or I should ask for umpteenth times to make it happen?

Don't ruin everything

2011-12-05T20:37:00.001+07:00

HELLO

Just a short post, bloogy. Don't panic.

After that short conflict, I think I know what should I do right now.
Be neutral. Let it happen like what it should be. Remember norms, ethics, and conditions.

Dear me,
Just don't ruin everything. Please, don't ruin it. Please.

I lost my appetite

2011-11-29T16:51:00.001+07:00

HELLO

Another spare time between meetings in the rainy evening.
Frosty and what to say-I lost my appetite since this morning. What a dumb.
Do you want to choose what's the topic for this session?
Fortunately no, I'll take my round, as usual. So, please just listen.

Lately, 9gag always posted about "friend zone".
Maybe for some people, it's kind of teasing. And the rest of it, it's just kind of jokes.
Me and my girl-friends was talking about it yesterday, so that's why it passed my mind.
Should we take up about friend zone now?

....No, I lost my appetite too about it.
Okay, okay. Don't hit me with your grumble face like that, bloogy. That's lousy.
Someday, we'll talk about it.

Guess I lost my appetite to write another topic.
Then it ends here.

p.s. Does anybody knows how to neutralize something?

Eat this Stupidity

2011-11-22T15:10:00.001+07:00

HELLO

Happy grow older, Kid!

Be mature and eat this stupidity!

Sincerely,

Us.

Webcam Toy Season

2011-11-22T14:36:00.001+07:00

HELLO

What a rare moment for me to write you in this cloudy afternoon.
After met 3 people from Art major (fyuh), now I'm waiting for first meeting with my mentees on 4.

Let's see, a few days ago I found unique Chrome application named Webcam Toy from Neave. And it's really cool ha-ha-ha
First, I'm just trying with self-camera then I asked my friends in my major to try and it becomes huge.
Love the effects and the funny atmosphere when you were taking pictures with your friends :)
The other cool application is pixlr, you can try to edit some pictures with sooo many instant effects there.

Here some pictures ( just a few from hundred pictures) :

So, ready to take a picture?
Webcam is ready :)

p.s. I bet you'll try after you read this post haha Go get some fun! :)

Restrain is doesn't enough

2011-11-19T21:06:00.001+07:00

HELLO

...And we meet in the middle of night again, disappointed?
You can take a deep breath because I won't be so long crashing you with my unspeakable chit-chat.
I'm in the middle of deadlines-weekend deadlines- for sure.
So I take my time for a while, here with you, release the force then go back to work.

My dear bloogy,
Your guess is right, satisfied?
I'm talkin' about that, restrain is not effective. I'm trying, but still it didn't work well.
I wonder why, is it that superb so not that easy to erase all things, what we've talk, what we've done before?
I never wonder why is it that hard to make it neutral.
Or because the denial came from presence of mind.
But, for God sake, I don't have any other choice except release all the things.
Restrain is doesn't enough.

Okay, deadlines is waiting.
Smell ya later.

p.s. I just don't want to ruin it all, my friend. Even though we've already know what's between.

We meet in the morning light!

2011-11-11T06:41:00.001+07:00

HELLO

We meet in the morning light, how coincidence!
Just have some sleep after Marching Band practice last night (..actually this morning).
I think I got fainted after that, oh well that's okay so that we meet now, bloogy.
Class on 9, and I'm still sag in the cuddle of this-ultra-comfort-bed.
Gonna get fast, let's start the morning short break!

A few days ago, I've a random conversation or let's say share session with one of my friend about a problem -his problem.
And what it was?
I won't write it completely because of the limited time.

Which one is deeper, heavier, and you stuck in the consciousness.
It's about restrain again, actually.
You, in your cognition, have to restrain so that the other one won't exceed the first.
Don't ask about how hurt and hard is that.

Let's say..what will you do if in the realization you can't handle it?
Should we choose the ideal condition and play save, or trying to be honest with yourself and follow Johnny Depp's quotation?
It's a difficult choice.
In that short time of babble, my friend said its better to leave it all, all of them.
So we'll have the same score. What a justice.

You can't lie yourself, how hard you forced yourself to restrain it and just pretending like nothing happened.
How long will you survive with pretense?
Final decision is just to be yours and you have to think about it.
And that coincidental conversation ends here, because he had to do his job that time and I had to practice (again).
Enough is enough.

Well,
It's really morning now..with unique date 11-11-11.
Are you ready to start your day?

p.s. Guess we need to meet in the morning more often, bloogy.

Sometimes, you just need to be impulsive

2011-11-08T01:40:00.001+07:00

HELLO

I'm still wake up after 13 hours journey from my hometown to Bandung.
Traffic congestion, as always.When is the time of flying-car revolution?
Fortunately, It's all healed with one of my favorite food and stupid conversations. Thanks for the time.

Sleepy and dizzy comes, makes me want to sleep right now but I've to wrote something before I jump to my bed (although now I'm on my bed).
Hurry. what do you want to talk, bloogy? Smart choice and light topic, please.
I think it's gonna be a short post.

I never imagine before how fun it is when you do an impulsive activity.
But now, I enjoy it.
Sometimes, impulsive is better than a well-planning activity.
You need it, impulsive, to make differences between your daily (-and usual) activities.

Do a random thing with random people! Try a new thing with new people!

How big is your curiosity about that two statement above?
Not that big? Or this big?

Sometimes, you just need to be impulsive.
Because of that, you will know how "fun" it is.

Laterm I'll write more about impulsive.
But for now, it's enough, dizzy dizzy everywhere.

p.s. I've done it 2 times today, oh well.

Restrain

2011-11-05T02:44:00.001+07:00

HELLO

Midnight distraction, awake after getting some sleep for tomorrow.
What's the midnight snack now?

Then, the random topic is...how about restrain?
What I means here is about keep your feeling and refrain from something.
Why sometimes you should forbear yourself?

Maybe some of you ever feel something which I wrote below :
You grin and bear your pain so that people won't worried about your condition,
You keeping a straight face when people distract your attention,
You keeping your temper and try to bear a cross about something that made you angry,
You keeping your feeling not to like someone else even though the fact is reverse and you can't deny it,

..How hurt is that?

Restrain is not as easy as you said and not as hard as it seems.
Somehow it's a positive but can be your negative.
How can be you refrain when you know that you're already deep in tortured?

..Isn't that hurt?

You can release it, sometimes. You can release it, my friend.
Make efforts is good, but don't impose yourself too much.
It's okay, no one would blame of your decision.
It's not about right or false, it's not about logical and imaginary.
All you need is just let it go, and see what will happen next.

'Let it go'?
Isn't that sounds weak and resigned to the situation?
No, it's about relieve yourself and open your eyes about something burried that you really want.
Should you ask to yourself or themselves, "Please let me go." so that you can release all your pain and hardness?
Or you still want to try keep your feeling and forbear it yourself?

Whatever you do,
The truth, even if it hurts, is better than anything.
And you can't restrain it.

p.s Self-experience ? Some of them, yes. Just described it, my friend.

Another busy things

2011-10-30T23:07:00.001+07:00

HELLO

Well, it's so rarely when I write two times in a day like this. But surely, it's because the repeated error installation of Android ADT Plugin (bla bla blah - freak detected!)
My outdoor wireless is died, that's why I'm here, in the living room alone, doing the emoticon assignment for tonight's deadline.
Enough for that.

How is it..
Let's pick one of random topic, as usual.
I've ever talked about 'busy' things in the last post. Don't get bored.

Actually, what things that make you look busy in front of the others?
Even though you know that you're not that busy anyway.

From the other side, Do you ever think that you're the busiest person all over the world?
Even though people around you, whether they aren't look that busy but they have their own business which you'll never know.

And do you mad when people said, "You're just pretending to look busy, so people won't distract your activity." ?
Even though you're in your end-point condition with your never-ending-assignments.

Or do you mad when people said, "Ah, you're too busy for doing this things."
Even though that isn't true and you want to scream "I'm not that busy!"

Well...
Busy or not busy isn't the important things, that's about choice.
The point is, how you make yourself look 'normal' in front the others.
Sounds easy, but not that simply doing.
And me, I haven't succeed for doing it until now. But it should be.

***

I think I get frustated, should I ask for a help tomorrow instead of waiting this installation?
Let's try again, once or two more.
Here we go.

p.s. I've said "random topic" at first, but in the end, it always something that ever or still happened in my life.

Abstract of reality

2011-10-30T07:31:00.002+07:00

HELLO

So how was it, my dear fellow?
Mine is..well,
After the graduation euphoria yesterday, it always comes to my mind, about life and choices.
Sounds serious, but sometimes we need to think about it.

What will you do with your life?
For the short time, after graduation?
Maybe some of you already know what will you do later, but some of you still sink in the abstract of reality.

Abstract, because you haven't know what will you do next.
Abstract, because you haven't decide which choice will suit you best.
Abstract, because you still don't want to think about your future and choose to enjoy your life for now.
Abstract, just because.

For one case, one of my senior in my major,
How he can be so inspirative in life, in organization, in socialita.
He know what will he do in his future clearly, ready to step on his path and walk forward.

Then I see me.
And how was it?
I haven't see the person who is ready to face her future.
She's still trapped in her zone, doubted to find her way out.
Haven't know when is the right time for change all of the fettle.
What is this anyway..

p.s. Happy Graduation, graduates. Good luck!

Turned back

2011-10-16T21:44:00.000+07:00

HELLO

Now everything's turned back.
Vulnerable, huh?
Invisible, like what you seen to me and like what I've done in the past.

Well, just keep on doing what you're doing now. Yes, my fault, you're right, you're free, good luck.
And it would be better if it wasn't a revenge.
Or is it?

Hello, Zombie. Hello, Panda.

2011-10-09T01:26:00.002+07:00

HELLO

Random meet at night, how long since the last time we did this, my dear bloogy?
I don't even remember.

Looks like there's so many things I have to do until I left my time for myself. Sometimes I need time for sleep outside the class or just take a rest and doing nothing.
Busy? No, me not.
Actually, I don't really like when people called me busy or activist because of my daily activities. Guys, there's a LOT of people who's busier than me, so please stop for calling me like that.

But, they said I enforce myself. I forced myself to benefit others.
He said, he didn't expect that it will be this hard for communication, moreover arrange a meeting.
My mom said, "When will you sleep properly?"

I think I turned into something else called zombie or panda, err, no- just the eyes.
No sigh, no complain. This is my choice so I must finish it.

Maybe the title should be changed into :
When is the last time you have a "me-time" ?

p.s. Like a bot - do you know what's the meaning?

So it was awesome

2011-09-30T17:24:00.000+07:00

HELLO

So it was awesome. Glad to have family, best friends, and friends like them :)
It wasn't about 1 to 2, or 2 to 3.
It is about our step in life. Live your life.

девятнадцать

2011-09-28T22:53:00.000+07:00

привет,

До свидания, подросток.

Unconscious

2011-09-21T13:42:00.002+07:00

HELLO

Well, it's been a long time since my last writing. Are you feeling well, bloogy?
Now I'm waiting for the next class then I remember you.

Just a random think.
Which one you prefer to choose? You being rude to others just for once then you free OR you sink forever in guilty and no one will be hurt (except you).
If I could, I want to let it go. But it's not as easy when you said, "Please, let me go." then it's over? No. Not that easy.

Force your self not to claim your reality is the same when you said, "No, I don't like it," or "No, it won't be." while you've already know the truth.
Keeping your mind by yourself isn't that easy, sometimes you want to share it but that's mean you've ready to crush it all.

So, who's better to be hurt?
No one? What a cliche.
Please don't just stay in your imagination that everything will be all right forever. Yes, I ever said that line, but for this condition, no, it won't be all right.

So, what I said just now? Wow I wrote it unconsciously.
Forget it, my class is about to start now.

It's not about what you get but what you give.

2011-08-06T01:53:00.000+07:00

HELLO

So, I'm back again. Miss me bloogy?
Like I said before that during last summer I've been somewhere doin'' some project for about almost 7 weeks. Where? Somewhere.
Life changing experience, my turning point, amazing, unforgetable moment, etc etc etc like all Exchange Participant always said when they were asking by people about their internship.
Me? Well, actually it's not a big different with it. But I can't write all my experiences here because I don't know how to write it all -haha.

I remember the time when I asked by her about what kind of things that I expected from my internship. It was about 4 months ago in the early morning at 3 a.m.
Just a line, "It's not about what you get but what you give."

I keep on that words during my time here because you'll never know what will you get and sometimes everything's happens below your expectations.
First time is always hard but later it won't be.
I give my best, I never think that did I get things in the same amount with what I give to them.
And by keeping that line in mind, I get more than I give.

I said that line too in candle ceremony, and one of my children said that, "I'll keep your words in my mind so that I won't forget you. Spokkoi nochi (Have a nice dream)." then she hug and kiss me before she went to the bed.
Just a little thing but I was very happy and touched..

Many things happened behind this special line, special for me.
But time's out, I need to sleep first because I think my eyes don't want to have a deal now.
So, until next time.

p.s. Neutral, I think.

News from here

2011-07-07T13:57:00.000+07:00

HELLO

So it almost 3 weeks I'm in here. I have a trouble with internet connection because there's no internet connection AT ALL in the camp so today is my last day for having it before I'm going back there this evening.

I'm doing great here. I can't write too much because of the limited time. Here some pictures :

I left my hometown on 17 June 2011. Now it's better because my mom sent me a lot of pictures about her condition now :) I'm sooo glad because I left her right after the operation.

Well, I'll write again in the end of July. Wish me luck.
Russia is great, also the people inside.

How to call it ?

2011-06-08T06:13:00.000+07:00

HELLO

"It's better for doing stupidity like this than pretending not to care each other."

nice quote.

I'm not sure

2011-05-25T00:29:00.000+07:00

HELLO

What would you do when you need somebody to talk but you are not sure about the people around you ? Even though that people is your relatives or someone who is close to you ?
Now I'm handle it myself and have no intention to talk about it again.

No, I don't need the words "Sorry.." or "I'm sorry to hear that," or "Hey, wanna going somewhere to release your stress ?" or "Oh come on, keep up your spirit !"

All I need is just, "Everything's okay, don't worry."
And that's should be happened.

p.s. I'm sorry for using a lot of tissue paper today :'(

A quote

2011-05-12T23:21:00.000+07:00

HELLO

"If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one, because if you really loved the first one you wouldn't have fallen for the second."
-Johnny Deep

Quoting a favourite quote by one of my friend, Agastia Cestyakara when we had a random night with 2 others. The quotation doesn't describe my condition now but we like that quote because that's totally true.
Don't you agree ?

Don't be naive

2011-05-01T20:40:00.002+07:00

HELLO

Today a got a new lesson for not being too naive with the other people, especially new people that you've just met.
Not all the people are like what you think.
People aren't forever doing the tolerance, kindness, or respect with others.
I talk about diversity, not about diversity in racist, religions, customs, or traditions.

Diversity of personality.
I don't mean that you must be prejudiced whenever you've just acquainted with new people, but don't lean on them easily.
Bound your self first until you think that this is the right time for release the boundary.
Don't be naive, not all the people like what you think, whether it's positive or negative.
That's all.

p.s. Writing you on my Black List ? No, I don't have any. I'm not like someone who is writing people's name so easily on his blacklist

It's not always like what it seem

2011-04-21T00:53:00.000+07:00

HELLO

It's is 00.51 a.m and this is a random post between the hectic time of tasks,

I rest my eyes for a moment and I found it.

Maybe some people doubted about our relationship, but it's not always like what it seem.

Well, you know what I mean, I'm not expert in making words.

ps. this pic taken by ucup on February 17th 2011 after TC IOMBC, it use for backdrop.

It almost blows up

2011-04-15T21:51:00.000+07:00

HELLO

I forget the last time I got angry in front of the people.
But today, it blows up, even though it's not in front of many people because it just me in my room with the pity victim : teddy-bear (I'm sorry, bear. My deep regret)

Mad and emotion.
It buried for a long time because of soooo many reason then I can't handle it anymore.
I hate the feeling of resist the emotion. It almost blows up.
I'm not showing the emotion with the others but then someone said,

"Resist your emotion, now go home then wudhu."

Then I'm going home and wudhu like my friend's suggestion.
It feels better, a bit.
Maybe I should take a nap for a while because I don't have any concentration for doing my tasks.
Preparing my self to fix it tomorrow.
Everything's gonna be okay (cliche).

And sorry for dumped it all to you, dear blog :(

General Question

2011-04-14T06:43:00.000+07:00

HELLO

"Is everything's okay ?"

(No. I'm not okay.)
"Yes."

Box of 19

2011-04-13T03:01:00.000+07:00

HELLO

Well, hello.
Everythings going fine here with a bit contrary but still handled.

Drop the sight in the purple life map which I made when I was in the first year of college.
It wrote in the box of 19 :
-Join Colour Guard National Competition
-Being active in HMIF
-Going Exchange.
I made it one and a half year ago, still 17 going 18. All I wrote just something that I called 'dream'.

'Join Colour Guard National Competition'
IOMBC 2011. I did it finally, with the committee's hard work for our desire, it bring me an amazing team I ever had. Despite it only takes 1 months but I never regret for get into this guard team.

'Being active in HMIF'
Here goes for my student association, even though I'm not the type of activist but I will give my best for it.

'Going Exchange'
Never imagine that it will be realize soon. Finally I matched with AIESEC NSU Russia. Hope the project and everythings about preparation will going well. I'll see you this June, Novosibirsk.

"You dream, you write, you realize."

Well, I can't wait for realizing my box of 20 soon.

p.s. You can do it too. Just try :)

Fake and Pride

2011-03-27T09:08:00.000+07:00

HELLO

Fake.
Aftermath of the fake, I got it.
Pride.
Pride, this is too much.
Fake and Pride, are you happy with your own little word without knowing others ?
"No."
Is there any other reason ?
....

Are you tired ?

2011-03-20T14:17:00.000+07:00

HELLO

"Are you tired ? If you can't stand it anymore, don't be enforced."

So it was me who said it and for this time I used it again, the thousand faces.
Forced smile doesn't look good although you think you were an expert on this.
Well, I'm not good enough to get your attention. Sorry for make you hard to face it. Even 'sorry' is not enough.

~~Forget it.~~

How weak

2011-03-12T00:49:00.001+07:00

HELLO

"If the tears dropped, would I be reffered as a weak ?"

Seems like everything's turned to be my fault now :(

It's not cool at all.

2011-03-06T02:49:00.000+07:00

HELLO

So it's already March.
I think the hectic month passed, but it's not.
I won't talk about how hectic it was or it will, so you won't be bored with assignment syndrom stories.

Well..

Lately, I often gets something in the eye.
Not because one thing or the things I'm doing right now, but also the random little things that comes into my mind.
Sensitive ? Maybe.

Crying is not cool at all. I hate if I can't handle it and that's happened.
Sounds weak ? I'm sorry.
Just ignore it.
Sorry.

Nobody's fool

2011-02-21T00:40:00.000+07:00

HELLO

"If you're trying to turn me into someone else
Its easy to see I'm not down with that
I'm not nobody's fool
If you're trying to turn me into something else
I've seen enough and I'm over that
I'm not nobody's fool
And if you wanna bring me down
Go ahead and try
Go ahead and try"

Nobody's fool - Avril Lavigne

Just a random song from play list. I won't be your doll, this is my style.

Scratch

2011-02-20T23:10:00.000+07:00

HELLO

Evening, a video camera, short hair, a stage of music, old smile.
Don't make me remember it again.

Habit

2011-01-31T02:52:00.000+07:00

HELLO

How's going ?
This is the end of January, 1 month after the new year, but what I've done ?

Well, lately I often posts on my Tumblr site rather than here, so I'm sorry.
I promised you before, I'll write about my random thought here, so here it is.

Habit.
Yeah, that word really blocked my way for doing the normal things in a relationship.
Some experiences from the past is greatly affect my attitude for doing this things which is I used to act like didn't care with anything happened, automatically make a gap between me and the person, etc
Why I'm doing that stupid things ? Because I want to get away from the person (I don't have any exhilarating experience on this)
That's effective and easy to get over it.
But the problem is, it's totally affect me NOW in the different condition because this time I was in unconscious state - want to get along with this person.
and like you guess, here comes the problem.

Even it was clearly done, but I'm worry about the next time if this habit is coming up and make it worse (please don't).
Well, I'm trying to change it and the reason is just for that person. That's it.

This post is cheesy. Uhm man, this is not my style after all. If it's not because that captious person, I won't ever write it.

p.s. You get my words on this

Deadline Everywhere

2011-01-04T09:23:00.000+07:00

HELLO

So this year is gonna be awesome.. with deadlines.

They said, this will be a hard semester for STI people. Oh dear academic, why you're so amusing.

The semester haven't begin yet, but whenever I check my email, messages, messenger, and other social networking site, it always be a new task to do as soon as possible wheter the previous haven't completed yet.

bla bla bla bla...blah.

...Man, what am I said just now ?

That sounds pathetic, Dyah Diwasasri.

You look totally weak just now. Where is your spirit ?

Don't ever say a complain !

This is your responsibility, do it with your best you can do.

Cheer up yourself, you have your own high kick.

What, looks strange to see someone talking to themselves ?

Then familiarize it.

High kick,

p.s. what are you looking for ? Do it, if you want.

Kick 2010, 2011 !

2010-12-31T22:15:00.002+07:00

HELLO

So this is the end of December, this is the end of 2010.

Many things happened, whether it was a good, bad or silly memories. I can't tell it one on one, anyway 2010 is awesome.

Some of my resolutions was successfully completed (even accomplished almost in the end of December - yeah you know what, get your laugh if you want), but some of them haven't yet.

Like the last year, I wouldn't wrote my resolutions on blog or social networking because it's a personal thing.

Curious ? Get enter my room, and see the wall after I kicked you with my high kick -- okay I'm joking.

Me, just celebrate new year with family, without fireworks and party, just doing nothing but who cares as long it's with your family ?

Anyway, Happy New Year 2011, have a blast !

Hope it gonna be an awesome year.

Hug and High kick,

I don't need any other romantic scene

2010-12-31T21:19:00.004+07:00

HELLO

Do you remember that I ever posted something about romantic scene last few months ? Well, I think it was gone after I heard this sentence last few days :

"After prayers, there are 3 things I always pray : ask for forgiveness, family, then you."

I lost my words, congratulations.

p.s. Well, you don't have doing anything else, this is more than enough :')

Happy 20th Wedding Anniversary Mom & Dad !

2010-12-16T22:38:00.003+07:00

HELLO

Happy 20th Wedding Anniversary Mom & Dad !

I wish for the best like I said in video and I wish I were there, sorry :(

I'm glad you like it, I miss and love you :)

Hugs-Kisses

We can because we believe and we believe because we can

2010-12-13T18:28:00.004+07:00

HELLO

Currently listening Happy Birthday by Ten2Five, It would be nice if this song heared in my birthday #forget it, anyway yesterday was my little sister-monster birthday, happy birthday mons, sometimes I miss you little bit :p

So, it's about 13 days to go, MBWG for GPMB.
No words can describe how it feels, how their face, how our sacrifice, our happiness, tired, sadness, tears, love, and emotion blended, how the practices, no words can describe it.
It doesn't matter with the result but let's give our best, our journey is more and more meaningful.
At last, I'm proud of being with you all, even word proud isn't enough for describe it.
Like Ode said, "We can because we believe and we believe because we can."
Because we are, Marching Band Waditra Ganesha..
Go get it, geeks ! :)

p.s. something stuck on my mind and I hate it, please go away.

It's not that fun, it needed.

2010-12-07T07:01:00.002+07:00

HELLO

(December, 3rd 2010)

The friday night, Is it fun ?

Why I asked about friday night, not saturday nght which is very stereotype ?
I just realize and found something that maybe contrary with my habbit.

A thousand faces, Is it fun ?

I ever wrote about the advantages of having a thousand faces, people won't realize your real feeling so you don't have to be worried for some reasons.
But, you'll be forced to smile when you're sad, hear when you don' want to hear, act like nothing happened when you're in regret and sometimes want to cry. I won't say that it is weak or it is coward. No, not at all.
I'm the person that often use the thousand faces for some reasons.
Not all the smile and the laugh is the real one.
Sometimes I have to laugh in order not to hurt the feelings of others, or laugh so that others do not know what I feel.
How hypocritical.

Fake expression, Is it fun ?

You may called me a liar for having fake expression, but it needed sometimes
Don't let something easy to let you down, don't let you cry for something that doesn't needed for it, don't let your friends always asks you with the same question, "What happens ? Why you look so sad ?"
Actually for me, that kind of question is really hard to answer because I don't want to look weak and make people think, "Hey you're not supposed to be weak like that."
Then here I am, almost keep it all alone except from some people. This time I really miss my old besties although the story is different from their life now and hard to tell it.

Why you still tend using it, is it fun ?

It's not that fun, It needed.
I want to be the me anywhere without the thousand faces and said, "Hello, this is me. Are you okay if I'm the person like this ?"

p.s. I didn't mean to let you have thousand faces, don't until you have it

This is the month, this is December

2010-12-01T18:05:00.003+07:00

HELLO

So let's greet the first day of December.
Many people has tweet their #decemberwish on Twitter.
Most of it contain of nice mark on exams, their lovelive and so on.
What's so special about December, actually ?

I'm totally sure that my Marching Geeks and I have the same thing.
This is the month, this is December. It's already December.

GPMB 2010.
Just that, just these word in mind.
What it will be ?

All the emotion had mixed, I can't described it clearly.
But, I'm sure that we are going to show the best there, we'll be.
I trust you, geeks. And I won't ever dissapoint you.
I'll show you my best. We'll show you our best.
Because we are one team, Marching Band Waditra Ganesha.

p.s. Pray us for the best :)

Something strange happens

2010-11-26T12:08:00.003+07:00

HELLO

What will you say when something strange happens inside of you?
You do not know why it happened and you just told this to one person you've never told before.

Strange and weird.
and I do not know why I write this.

Why so strange.

Today Flavour in Tumblr

2010-11-22T18:59:00.004+07:00

HELLO

So finally I publish my tumblr site

Today Flavour in Tumblr

I have it since a long time ago, first I use it as a secret trash but some people found it, so yeah like this.
I wrote in another style, which is in informal language and not all wrote in English.
The concept still the same with this blog, Today Flavour.
But the Flavour contains my daily life, silly things, and love life (-eh?).
Wheter in here, I use English and wrote my random thought about anything.

So if you have time, you can have some tea too there.
Catch you later ! :)

p.s. This blog still the best, you've accompany me for about 3 years. Big hugs :)

Hello, I Miss You.

2010-11-18T07:33:00.008+07:00

HELLO

Just miss them, just that.

Great tone colour

2010-11-16T08:43:00.003+07:00

HELLO

Thank you for Arini who had photographed and edited this picture and Andhika who took mine.

The colour tone was just great :)

Continue or Stop ?

2010-11-16T07:15:00.003+07:00

HELLO

Well, glory to see you again with the random things that haunted me for about this week.

Tommorow is Idul Adha and I really want to go home and meet my family.

But maybe, this is not the time :(

"Continue or Stop ?"

That's a usual question when you have to make a decision.

Let's make an anology.

If you continue, you'll ruin the friendship and relationship in the future, but you'll feel relieved whatever the outcome.

If you stop, we are going to bear it alone, enduring feelings and regret, but there won't be a big risk for the relationship.

What to choose - Continue or stop ?

Call me a risk taker for the continue choice.

Call me a coward for the stop.

And I might be inclined to stop.

What will you choose ?

p.s. I hate you, the coward side.

Boyfriend(s) for our dream

2010-11-10T04:04:00.010+07:00

HELLO

I'm sorry September, these things are my boyfriends until December.
Pray us for the best.
For our dream, GPMB 2010.

p.s. one more month, wish us luck !

Arak - arakan Wisuda HMIF Oktober 2010

2010-11-07T20:37:00.008+07:00

HELLO

Here some snapshots from the past Arak - arakan Wisuda HMIF Oktober 2010
The theme is : Phantom of The Opera
And we performed Live street drama, Marching Band, Stick dance by boys, Girl Dance and Couple dance.
Happy Graduation :)

I'll try to be as neutral as possible

2010-11-02T00:10:00.004+07:00

HELLO

Meet the first of the gloomy night in the November, fortunately tonight the rain doesn't come.
What I'm doing ? What are you doing ?
I'm doing nothing. Do you ?
Just like the old habbit, randomly post in the middle of night or maybe in the early morning.
Taking a break from my routine activities and tasks which is being postponed.
What should I wrote now ?

The playlist always know what's the condition now.
Maybe it's a 2 in 1, music playlist and mind-reader.
Skip that thing.

So, I'm concerned with a people and I give him more attention than others.
But yesterday, I'm just being ignored and it encourages my ego to get away as far as possible.
My self-esteem and prestige are the winners.
It's like jump and fall.
So now, I set myself to look like nothing happened.
I attempted not to look care with him.
I'll try to be as neutral as possible.
It's the time to use my speciality : a thousand masks for covering my expressions and attitudes
and expect everything to be forgotten.

p.s. This is hard but not impossible

if the feeling does not change, then what's the point of time?

2010-11-01T09:16:00.004+07:00

HELLO

Welcome, hectic month, November.
For the next 30 days, I'll practice everyday for GPMB.
Wish everything okay like my mom said, " Take care of your HEALTH and HEALTH and HEALTH! " You could hear that everytime if your mom were a doctor.

So, what's so special ?
No, I think. Maybe just a bit sound of cliche so that you'll be a little bored for hearing it.
Talking about the change of feeling, what do you feel now ?
Falling In Love ? Sad ? Regret ? Mad ? Mixed ? or you don't know what you feel ?
Any words that describe your feeling now is just a word.
You won't know until its change.

What I want to share now is, when you have a different feeling for someone - I don't know if it's included in the category of 'Fall in love' or not- and you're totally sure that he/she is the one and only that you would care about.
Or just like this,

Someday you're totally sure that you've crush on him/her
As the time goes on, you never get the response back.
And at that time, a new person comes into your life.
When you realize, you didn't feel anything again to your past crush.
Your feelings have changed.
But that time, that person from the past give the late response back to you.
Now you have two choices.

In this time, we'll say "Why should it now ? Why not sooner ?"
We like to blame time of the changes in our feelings at that time.
Well then,
"If the feeling doesn't change, then what's the point of time ?"

p.s. Maybe I should stop to pay attention to you

I'll eat that word : Tired

2010-10-19T02:35:00.003+07:00

HELLO

So I left you cold again, bloogy.
And I haven't wrote here and that last September 29th was my 19th birthday.
Do I look old already ? I hope not.
But It was amazing, the best birthday bash I got from one to another one, I blessed for having them around. Thank you sooo much!

So, what I want to share in here is about TIRED.
That kind of word that always haunted me everyday which is fulfilled by many routine and random activities beside college thingy.
You're right, now I'm doing GPMB practices and TC (Training Camp), PINKA 2010, handling Home Tournament HMIF 2010 as organizer and player in some of divisions, handling graduation night and the parade as performer (one thing that looks similiar is : I train some boys for a performance).
That's not includes Tubes, UTS, and many more.

My activities above is just an example.
What I'm feeling the most is : Tired.
You wanna scream like, "I need a break!" or " Please, would you let me cut it off for just one day?", etc
Exhausted.

The thing that I didn't like is when someone that haven't many activities like we do said, " Aaah I'm tired! I wanna sleep!" or "I wanna go home asap, I'm tired, I haven't studying and doing homeworks!" or "I'm tired, I want to study for the exam tommorow" and bla - bla - bla - the other blah.

It's like, "Helloooo what are you doing ? Did you know what I'm doing ? And you keep saying those word ? Tired ?"
Wondering that they were in our position is like..never happened.
What would they said ? "I'm die" ?
Geez I hate it.

So what I want to get through this is, don't until thos word 'tired' eventually said everytime you doing something.
Did you know that it's just the same that you've just drowned your spirit yourself by saying that.

Eat that word!
Don't ever say 'Tired' before you're really feel it and your body can't handle it.
Believe me, that word just a negative sugestion for you, especially procrastinator.

p.s. Just take care of your health, the one who know your condition is yourself.

I mean your attention

2010-09-05T21:52:00.007+07:00

HELLO

What's on the top ? Holiday is the answer!
I found so many people type the words : 'Finally' or 'Welcome holiday!' or 'Happy holiday everyone' in their social networking.
What so special about holiday then ?
Of course it's SUPER special for me who haven't got 'pure holiday' last 2 months.
Hope this 10-days-holiday could satisfied me.

Okay then.

So the topic I wanna share is about 'Getting attention'.
"Pay attention when there is people who is talking in front of you!"
"Please pay attention when the lecturer explaining something!"

No, not that things.
First thing that come up is about a scene when a girl trying hard to get her crush's attention or on the contrary.
Am I talking about love again ? Oh not like that - or yeah I think so. Just a little bit.

Have you ever tried to get someone's attention while his/her just didn't realize -or maybe- ignored it ?
Thats usual.
Or the other case is you want to get the A's attention, but the one that getting interest with you is B's, or C's or others that you didn't 'hope' for.
Thats usual, too.

And all things happened makes you want to say : " I want your attention ! Not theirs." or "Why do you keep ignoring me ?"
Oh, how stereotype.
But thats what usually happens here, I'm sure enough that almost of you ever experienced with it.

What should we do ?
Keep trying to get his/her attention. How ?
Give up soon. Why ?
Not that all.

The way to get it is depend on you, each of you.
Try to think how to get attention. Whatever you act cool or give his/her jokes or become their 'friends' first, all is up to you.
Learn your target's characteristics, what things that make them interest.
Set your plan, and moving forward.
Hope would result a nice ending.

When I'm writing this post, It's like I'm talking with myself.
Actually I wrote it based on my experiences right now.
How hard to get the attention while you've already done everything.
And I realize, "Oh, It's not that easy! It's not like you talking comfortably with your buddies."

Once, when I'm successed got the attention then here was come, the distractor.
And, good bye attention. See you later.
Or when I'm pretty sure that he would give attention to me about what I've done, but the others just came up and he isn't.
Ok, that was bad.
I hope that your experience isn't that bad.

Hello you there, I mean your attention.

p.s. Hug your holiday, you'll never know how amazing it feels.

Crazy Wendy's

2010-08-29T14:56:00.005+07:00

HELLO !

So last saturday night My MBWG friends & I went to Wendy's in Braga, Bandung after a full day of practice and training for PINKA 2010.
Here some snapshots.
We got a rule there :)

Ajeng & Firman, the oldest.

Sorry, he already reserved.

We have the same glasses

They look cute together

Marriage

from the outside

and take a picture again

they were happy too

and we were.

Most pictures taken by me so I didn't present a lot there.
Anyway, It was fun for relieveing the past hectic week.
Thanks, friends.

p.s. How about your satnite, then ?

MBWG on Parade OHU ITB 2010

2010-08-17T22:33:00.006+07:00

HELLO !

now i'll show some snapshots from the last Open House Unit (OHU) ITB 2010 Parade at Dago street, Bandung.
We had it on Sunday, August 1st 2010 in Car Free Day.
Marching Band Waditra Ganesha (MBWG) also participated in that event.
Take a look and have a save seat :)

The crowd

Colour Guards

Battery

Brass and Front Ensemble

and that's me :p

p.s. wish us luck for the next upcoming event : GPMB 2010 on December.

Tonight is a great night

2010-07-10T01:56:00.002+07:00

HELLO

I'm too sleepy to write this, maybe next day.
The conclusion is, Tonight is a greaaaaaaat night :*

p.s. popular is always, interesting.

Friendships take precedence over love

2010-06-23T20:28:00.004+07:00

HELLO

So I tried random playlist today and this song is the first song played :
Now Playing..
Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.

Eat that.
Honestly, This song reminds me about 2 people, that ever, yeah ever close to me.
Well, I won't say their name here, but maybe some of you've already know who they are.

(It gonna be a long story, so keep on reading, this is the rare time for me to share the love story bluntly)

***
It's almost 2 years ago,
I joined a course, there I met them.
One of them is the type of boy who sociable, friendly, and loved by everyone. Call him the sociable boy.
The other is a type of boys that ignorant, stubborn, but very humorous. Just said, the ignorant boy.
Both of them are best friends.
We're together in the same class for about one year.
At first, I'm getting interested with the sociable boy. But, I never told anybody. I just admire him.
But after time goes on, everything changes.

He was interesting.
His bad attitude, obnoxious face, and mocking.
This ignorant boy had shown his interesting side of him.
We are getting closer, exchanging messages, taunting each other, exchanging songs to thousands of files, pick up before leaving the course, visit to my house, playing with my lil' bro, etc.
Isn't it fun when you are spending your time with the person you like ?

But not that easy.

Shortly afterwards, the sociable boy confessed his feelings to me, directly, in the public place, in front of many people and helped by all of my course class mates -included him, the ignorant boy.

He-the sociable boy- prepared it well, with the full decoration.
The crowd said, " Say yes! Say yes!"

I saw him, the ignorant boy.
nodded his head framed by a sheer smile.

Now I know why people said, friendship is more important than love.

Then I said yes.
So him, the sociable boy, become my boyfriend, that time.
I know, I was wrong. But it already happened.
After that, me and the ignorant boy were a bit away from each other.

2 weeks after that, there would be a mini show in my course place.
Before that, the ignorant boy, play and sing a song with his guitar after the class over.
I made bold to ask,

"Hey, what's the title of the song ?"
He stop playing and asked, "Why ? You like it ?"
"I think so."
"The title is Your Guardian Angel."
"And the singer ?"
"The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus."
"Is it hard to play it on guitar ?"
"Not that much. Come, I'll teach you how to play it."

Then he taught me how to play the song.
He patiently taught me, he also sings a little.
But maybe I was nervous, so I couldn't hear what he said that time clearly. But I'm sure, he said it.

"I will play and sing this song for you at the show tomorrow."

and I just stayed.

The day comes, the show begin.
The ignorant boy performed first with his band, brought some songs.
After that, he proved his promise, he went up on stage with the acoustic guitar, but the thing that surprised me is that he also went up on stage, the sociable boy.

"The following special acoustic appearance from us, Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatuss. Feel free to listen."

Then they played it.
The ignorant boy stared me while he sing.
Even a frame couldn't describe how it was.

After the show, I was immediately taken home by the sociable boy. I did not get to chat with the ignorant boy.
At that time, an incoming message from the ignorant,

'Hey fussy, how about the performance ? Do you like it ? :p'
'Amazing, thank you :) but why you didn't tell me that he (the sociable boy) joined to perform ?'
'He asked me suddenly, I think he's jealous with me haha :p'
'How come ? You must be kidding. But it was great, seriously.'
'He asked me not to get close on you, so maybe we can't go on like this again. Anyway thanks, unfortunately, he's your boyfriend.'

As you can guess, after that the relationship between me and the ignorant boy stretched, and soon I broke up with the sociable boy.
We all know this could be happened.
At first, It was awkward. We all do not contact each other again for some months. Three of us.
But now, everything's okay. We already have a new story. Each of us.

When I remembered, it was like seeing the foolishness of the past.
But then I smiled,
This is part of my story that can become a memory.
Besides that, I also experienced myself when friendships take precedence over love.
I understand that.
and if the song was played, automatically I will remember this story.

p.s. Friendships take precedence over love. I agree that.

It's romantic scene. Not romantic scene which is created.

2010-06-19T20:11:00.006+07:00

HELLO

Hello ! Yello ! Catch you.
Before writing this, my music player play some memorable songs. And suddenly something appears in my mind.
Shall we begin for random thoughts ?
Adjust yourself, comfort your position.
Be ready to take off.

So, what I wanna write here is about romantic scene, not the created one.
Me, not included as the romantic person but I like to see it scenes.
I know there are MILLIONS romantic scenes out there in the movies, TV shows, reality shows, music videos, etc.
It's different with the real romantic scene of people around me.
Anyone! Mom and Dad, Brother and Sister, Boy and Girl, Friend and Friend, Stranger and Stranger. Anyone.
I adore some of their experience.
But, for me, nothing could defeat -even the most romantic scene in the world- if we experience it yourself.

Why so special ?
Because it happened naturally.
Because you and your partner, feel it directly.
Because you can't hold your own heartbeat.
Because it would make you smile when you remember it.
and so on.

I'm sure that you must be ever go through this, at least once in your life.
Or you just don't realize, it happened. It ever happened.
Try to remember.

Does it hurts ?
Does it should be called as a happiness ?
You decide.

Me, when remember about some romantic scene I've ever have, can't hold to smile.
Whatever it was a sadness smile or happiness.
Thank God, because of this extraordinary scene plays in my life.
Though the others romantic scene is more romantic than mine,
I think, It's not a big deal.

The romantic scenes is sweet.
Don't you agree ? :)

p.s. Detail of my romantic scenes ? I'll tell you somewhen.

are you feeling much better now ?

2010-06-17T21:03:00.003+07:00

HELLO

try to think

What are you up to ?
Don't stare me with those strange eyes. Okay, I know that pic above is kind of weird pose. Take it easy, kay ?

So, June is here. First assumption, "Oh! It gonna be a greaaaaat holiday!"
but the reality, "Throw away your dreams, dear. We've got a lot of things to do."

Geez.

What-kind-of-'things' ?
Once again, I'm not act as a busy-college-student here, but, it is.
Diklat OSKM 2010, SPARTA, and practice for GPMB 2010.
In the (almost) SAME TIME.
I wish I could cut myself into 3 pieces.

So that is.

Oh, I got a haircut, but not-too-different with before.e post
This mochi taste is good ! *out of topic

Crap that.

I miss writing anything in my mind, but still, what it called, hard to type.
So that I rather to post something meaningfull here, at least after college stuff.
and I hate it.

p.s. are you feeling much better now ?

Something missed

2010-05-27T20:56:00.002+07:00

HELLO

Something missed, and I don't know what it was.

I think I missed April

2010-05-04T22:45:00.002+07:00

HELLO

So, it was bad.
I didn't posted anything - I mean anything ! in last April.
I'm sorry bloogy, I'm the bad owner for lettingyou cold for so many times (let's count it, 1..2.. oh well so on)
Maybe the reason is I'm busy with this college rush.
What ? I said busy ? b-u-s-y ?
I'm not that important to judge myself as busy person, so let's say... My day fulfilled by many random activities : still, Marching Band for the first, then all college d*mn assignments.
Yeah well-okay the conclusion is I'm lazy to write on you, that's the right answer.

So, It's already May, and do you know how pronounced this month ?
EXAMINATION MONTH ! yeaaaaay
okay, that's good, with all big assignment for each college thingy that make "I want holiday" stuck in my mind all over time.

Skip that.

On last May, we'll have Mini Show Colour Guard (include audition for GPMB 2010), pray for the best, practice for the success !

and anyway, I love my classmates now, in the last few days of TPB (Tahap Persiapan Bersama) we are getting more solid and fun - hell yeah, then we think, "Why now, not from early we met?"
I love stei4nsos. the anti-socialis class with brutalism inside, I love them. I don't want us to be separated :(

For my major, finally I decided to choose STI (Technology and Information System) than IF (Informatics). Why ? because the STI members are G4VL ( oh no-it just a jokes, don't make it seriously)
because I interested with the management thing, actually. Hope it is the best choice.

I miss my old friend, my old besties, and my family. Through I rarely get in contact with them, actually I miss-you-so-much, people.

Last, about love. How could I haven't get any boyfriend here ? Not because there aren't people interested with me haha but I'm not interested with anybody right now, but don't judge me, I'm still on the right track.

So, have I done yet ? I think so, I write too much haha
I'll see you next time, I love you bloogy.

p.s. Can't wait for this holiday

I miss You

2010-03-30T00:13:00.002+07:00

HELLO

Suddenly miss you so much bloogy.
I think I should re-arrange my life again.
I'll contact you soon.

PINKA CG '09

2010-02-10T10:50:00.007+07:00

HELLO

I've told you in my recent post that I've joined Marching Band Waditra Ganesa (MBWG-ITB). My position is Colour Guard (CG) or you could say Flag Players.
In last holiday we joined intensive practice for about 10 days before new semester coming up.
So I want to show you how we are practice, how my skin turn dark so fast, how muscle form in our hand, how wounds crashed our body, how tired we are, and how happyyyy our feels ! :)

Open your eyes and see, maybe you'll get interest with one of these girls haha

Practice Time :

Break Time, the weather is so damn hot.

Her name is Lily !

Look out these muscle !

..and our muscle !

You can see how different it is. It's Sandy's.

Always have spirit !

We are PINKA CG 09 :)

and it is me.

We'll perform our FIRST PERFORMANCE on March, 5th 2010 in ITB.
come, see, and wish for our luck :)

p.s. Finally I do what I want to do :)

Meet this Taiwanese Girl

2010-02-10T10:14:00.005+07:00

HELLO

So last week my bestie come to Bandung (yeaaaay). Her name is Pempi but I usually called her mbex. Don't ask me why.
Then the next Thursday Anti was come with her singkek - uh, I mean her AIESEC Exchange Participant from Taiwan named Vivian or in Taiwan her name is Ting Pan.
We're hanging out around Bandung, I asked them to taste many kinds of food here then we went to Paris Van Java and took some pics there.
Actually there was an 'accident' happened, but overall it was fun enough.

Here the pictures,

Anti, Mbex, Me.

This pics taken in Toilet, don't you believe ?

My bestieee :)

In Bra-Shop. (Look on that size ! geez )

Soursally with Vivian, Anti, Mbex.

I'll wait for your next visit, sistas :)

Girl Classmates

2010-02-09T22:15:00.006+07:00

HELLO

They are my girl classmates on STEI-4.
Total peeps : 15, but in this pictures only 14 of us, the one was sick (get well soon, Ayu).
That day we are waiting for Physic Tutorial at 4 p.m. and Citra brought a DSLR camera, then like you see :P

We are 15 girls from 74 boys. Minority. But NOT in the camera.
Please welcome girls of STEI-4 !

Pics Greeting

2010-02-09T21:44:00.002+07:00

HELLO

So, how's your day ?
Next I'll post SOME pictures which describe activities I've done for.
Then short stories from every single topic.
Watch out,

The Late Gift

2010-01-27T07:27:00.006+07:00

HELLO

I dedicated this video to my bestiee, Iffa Shofia who celebrate her 18th birthday on 23th of December 2009.
I'm sorry for the late gift, and the bad editting for the video because i lost the previous data so i made the new one.

Happy Birthday, girl :)

first random on 2010

2010-01-23T07:38:00.002+07:00

HELLO

okay this is my first post in 2010, and maybe so last moment for saying "Welcome 2010!" for you.
and i'm sorry, besides so many organization event and Marching band activities that I must attend, here I (for the times) left you cold, again.

i've so many stories to tell, so many pics to share, and so many random thought to waste but now isn't the suit time to doing that kind of things because I've to go to Marching Band intensive practice about half-hour again.

ck. okay, random, for first.

as the flow, i'm unrelief.
so many problems faced, then solved.
but the end result are not all match like what I wanted before.
then I found how pathetic I am when I said, "I'm regret for not doing this before, " or "Why I'm not trying hard from the first time so that I shouldn't regret in the end ?"

I remember that I ever wrote about this, "Don't ever you regret in the end of the bad situation." and "This is not important when you count your failure but how you get up and trying again."

I think, I should said it to myself, now.
Again.

so, it's almost the time, I've to go,
see you in someday.

p.s. laughing maybe help

and thank you for your smile today

2009-12-06T17:49:00.002+07:00

HELLO

So it was 5 p.m. after college hours.
Met up with my friend there and I saw you on the backside, joking with your friend.

I should have forget it from long time ago, but,
Rush-rush-rush. I'm in the mood of rush.
This eyes just focused on you, while I was hidding behind my friends.
and, oh - you smile, with her again.

I was trying to let it go by joining their (my friends) joke whatever it was so cruel like 'lifting your friend as a cow then throw it away'. CRUEL.
Pretending not seeing you there.
But you came here, closely. Speaking with my friend.
First we're just talking as usual and joking of course.
Then you asked me,

" Are you not in the mood ? What happened ? Tell me, haha. Hey, I'm serious. "

I saw deeply into your eyes, I wanna say " It's because of you, stupid ! " but I realize that is a very bad idea to do.

" No, I'm just in a rush mood, " I throw my sight out.
" I think I'm kind enough for asking you but you ignore me like this. ckckck "

Then he talked with my friend about something freak and funny about a girl that made me laugh out loud.
So he said,

" Hey, you're laugh afterall. So we (he & my friend) are successfully for turn your mood good again, "
He smiled.

***

So it was evening and would be raining.
But it doesn't matter,
and thank you for your smile today.

p.s. you can guess, is it trully happened or just in my imagination :p

You're gonna be okay, you're not that weak

2009-12-02T18:22:00.001+07:00

HELLO

First of December, 2009.

Most of you were waiting for December coming.
Yes, you've said it everywhere, on Twitter, Facebook, Plurk, etc. Even you weren't say it, I think you'll say 'yes' for the first statement.

Why waiting for December ?

Me, included to a person who isn't pay much attention of 'What month is it ?' or 'Is it already December ?' and so on.
Maybe December has it own speciality for some people, May-be.
But after people mentioned #decemberwish on their Twitter just now, something came up in my mind.

What is December for me ?

My December was welcoming by rain.
Yeah. Rain (for wheater) and 'rain' (reflection of the day).
I'm not talking about love.
...okay. Yes, I got a bad mark again, twice. Now is Calculus turn.
Not as bad as Physics last exam, but yeah you-know-that.
Do you feel bored if I'm talking about my mark again ? Hope you're not. I'm in a rush mood now. Absolutely.
(I don't know people whom I must discuss with, so here the top. You're my blog, right ? And I'm freely doing what i gotta do. )
My besties here got perfect score, 100 - 96 - 80-etc. They're great, They got their best try.

*Take a breath*

How December make my rainy day ?

With blank and unconditional mind after that, sentence like " Come on, Sasri. Cheer up, you'll do better next ! " or " This is not the end of your journey, you still have Final Exam ! " until the most unhelped one, " You must learn harder, " aren't help at all.
And it was rain that evening. Cold and dark.
Fulfilled by worried thingy, complicated, and rush.
Until I saw a tweet on my timeline, form TheHeartBox.
" You're gonna be okay, you're not that weak. "
...and sure,
It successfully flipped my mood.
So-What ?
I'm gonna be okay, because I'm not that weak.
I won't be broke by thingy like this.
Have I ever said that " It's not how much you've ever failed, but how much you get up and try again. " ?
Yes, I'm not that weak.
I'm not that weak.
I'm gonna be okay.
I'm gonna be okay.
I'm gonna be okay !

p.s. At least, December have it own meaning for me, now.

Symphonesia 2009 !

2009-11-13T04:41:00.004+07:00

Monday, 9th November 2009 03:00 am

HELLO

so it was aaaw-some !
Started at 01.00 p.m. until 01.00 a.m. in Sasana Budaya Ganesha, with thousands people there.
A little bit regret because I was comin' late so I missed Endah 'n Rhesa performance *grrr Marching Band practice*
Then I went there with Sandy, Iqbal, Otum, and the others FTSL guys. Yeah, I'm the only girl (again) and the missing one. Most of my girl friends didn't come or they came with their boyfriend *uhuk jealous uhuk*. So there I was, pretending like a boy while hanging out with them.
Err. I miss my girl side. LOL

ASEAN Culture Performance, Angsa Srigala, Endah 'n Rhesa, Efek Rumah Kaca, The S.I.G.I.T, Ecoutez !, Maliq and D'essentials, and Glenn Fredly as closing, I think paying Rp 52.500 for the Symphonesia 2009 ticket is worth enough.
Sing all along the performance and take a lot of pictures.
And you know what - almost the song here was all about love. I mean sadlovestories, brokenhearted, complicated, bla bla sad mode : on.
Single people shooted !
Okay, I'm in.

Overall, Symphonesia 2009 was great, and I'd love to come again next year. hehe :)
And here is some pictures. Sorry, no pictures about us because the camera battery was exhausted. gezz

Guitarist from Ecoutez !

Glenn Fredly

Maliq and D'essentials

Ecoutez !

The S.I.G.I.T

p.s. Oh yeah, I wore a skirt there, count me in :p

When I Got A Bad Mark

2009-11-13T04:38:00.000+07:00

Monday, 9th November 2009 22.31

HELLO

Calm, I'm not going to write about love.
So, you won't able to read melancholic-sentimental-dramatic post now.
Want to share college-peeps-thinking when they are in the first semester and got a bad mark for their first midtest.
Uh-I mean, me.

When I was in highschool, got a bad mark was usual. Not very bad but It wasn't a great mark to share with your friends. I never got excellent mark (100 pure) for all of my test.
Then I was trying to repair it.
The result ? Good enough.

After that, I entered college life, here, ITB. School of Electrical Engineering and Informatic.
Almost people with over-capacity of their brains ARE THERE.
In the other words, ex-all kinds of olympiad members or genius people who wrote mathematic book in 3 LANGUAGES when he was in highschool, or the subscribers of 'A' mark in every test.
(Wth with this faculty ?? )

Me ? Don't ask.

I know they (we called 'them' as 'God of STEI' or 'Dewa STEI') had work-so-hard in the past to reach it.
I know I haven't show my best try -even I don't know how to show it.
And I prefer to prior my non-academic activities, so I lost the important ones.

I got a bad mark on Physics midtest.
Seriously, BAD.
The worst mark I ever received.

I'm not cry or regret for it, I know from the first I took wrong strategy.
For a moment, reaching my target (IP > 3,5 at first semester) is still far away, but there's a chance on second midtest 3 weeks again.
It won't easy, but I-will-try.

No, I won't change into Study Oriented Person, but re-organize my activity and give more times to study. Pray too.

Would you wish me luck ?
Thank you.
Wish you get success too then,

p.s. no tears just fight !

Before you've entered finish line, you should be never give up.

2009-11-04T12:48:00.001+07:00

HELLO

November 2nd 2009, 01:37
Waking up after stayed away too late. Rushing my imagination and tearing some midnight snack to start writing this post. Oreo Soft Cake looks better.
Oh, Non sense, I think.

So, me. staring in front of you. When I wrote this post, people around me was exploring their own imagination dreamworld.
Oh, wait, there's a boy next to my room playing his guitar and singing a catchy song. Maybe I should asked him what's the title of the song. At least I know that I'm not the only me who's still wake up in here.

Wait a minute.

Okay I'm back.

I don't even realize that for my last 2 post was talking about-uh-love ? Something that I rarely wrote for about 2 years blogging ( I started it on October 2007).
Weird. What things that makes me turn to a-melodic-drama-queen like this ? Arrgh no, I don't like it.

Bzzt. ITunes playing songs that refers me to someone I've thinked for sometime ago. Even shuffle mode can read what I'm thinking now.
And I still remember your face and expression when we-Stop, You're so-Oh, Stop. Please. Don't.
Be ready to find sentimental girl after this.

I want to talk with myself, my own ego and sarkatism side. Let myself not to postpoe works I've should done before. Warn my own ego not too obsessed with him. Asking my sarkatism side to do sarkatism things (Okay, I'm joking).
Seriously, I'm threating with 'Galau Syndrome' for now.
Social networking also be my victims, but, nah, I prefer to writing about mylife here than Twitter or Facebook.

About my lasr post, I told you that I hate for being A Secret Admirer. Why ? It just turns you into a tiredness and hopeless.
Hey, don't judge me that I just can say the words. I've ever be a Secret Admirer before, 3 years ago for about 1 years, and I'm doing nothing.
Yep. Nothing. Just staring from a distance and go out with someone else I didn't love, It was nothing.
That was a main reason why I don't want to be A Secret Admirer (again). Useless and dissapointing.

Let's try frontal way.
Like a music, like your life.
Listening what you want to listen, Living what you want to live.
If you love someone, then don't just sit, wait, and hope like she/he would come to you.
Even you have no brave to say it out loud that you are falling with them, then try to get closer with.
Is it happy for being around with someone we loved ? Absolutely.
Yeah, I can see your cheesy smile when you're imagine it.

What's the point afterall ?
Before you've entered finish line, you should be never give up.

Oh, right. I'm feels like I'm a Love Consultant now -weird.
Then I want to ended this post.

p.s. I hate this virus.

I hate for being a Secret Admirer

2009-11-01T17:35:00.005+07:00

HELLO

I wanna see my expression while i wrote this post. Contrary to the fact that I don't know how can I express my feeling know. Happy ? Maybe. Sad ? Not wrong.

Oh, You need flashback ? Go on. No need ? Then go.

Last Saturday night was awesome ! Hanging out with 7 Pom - Pom Boys (Arif, Nunu, Dipil, Ryan, Otum, Kiky, Yanu ) and my girls (Ulfi and Tyas) who are very very BRUTAL ! haha

We went to NAV Karaoke at Ciwalk and spending time there for about 2 hours. We were addicted with a virus called craziness. We sang along with our choice songs and most of the songs are 'Broken-Hearted Song' which refers to our love situation that time.
Complicated Love Life *sigh*.

But I really enjoyed it, all things related to 'Stress High Stadium' was gone. We laugh over and over, e talked about love and some useful tips to passed it by.
And the most wanted session we never passed : PHOTOSESSION.

We need to go out again next day, I really want to :)

Here they are. Look at those wierd faces. LOL

Ehm, I want to share pics when I had HEDON TIME with Ms. Tata in SourSally PVJ. Great time with her.

Then we'll enter a mellow-drama session. You still read ? Okay.

Seriously, I want to show how happy I am being around you, but then I think " Oh no, just don't. It will be the worst thing I've ever done. "
I know the fact, I know it. I know.
You know it is so-HARD being a person that just can see and wait.

Hell.
ITunes playing 'When You Love Someone' by Endah n Rhesa.

***
I love you but it’s not so easy to make you here with me
I wanna touch and hold you forever
But you’re still in my dream
And I can't stand to wait ‘till nite is coming to my life
But I still have a time to break a silence

When you love someone
just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
when you hold your love
don’t ever let it go
or you will loose your chance
to make your dreams come true.

I used to hide and watch you from a distance and i knew you realized
I was looking for a time to get closer at least to say... “hello”
And I can’t stand to wait your love is coming to my life

***
Shoot !
That represents what I feel now.
Blur. I can't think. Galau.

Maybe what I want to say now is
"I hate for being a Secret Admirer."

p.s. I need some fresh air (again)

We're in the same town but different stories

2009-10-27T21:04:00.000+07:00

HELLO

I want to know what's your expression when i'm come back here, writing such an annoyed post that disturbing your sleep, Bloogy ?
Wake up ! Give your total attract for me, your majesty. Oh, you have ? Okay, that's good.
Now can I start my sentences ? Don't be fall a sleep, please.

Bandung is an unpredictable city like I spent my last Saturday and Sunday Nite with my new friends, my homeboys pom - pom boys. You're rockin' awesome, you've made it ! I can laugh afterall i spent my time with you all, sillys. Thank you, sick ! hahaha

Bandung also an unpredictable stories, especially for love stories.
' We're in the same town but different stories. '
The special tagline I've made for describe what i feel now. Classy, but naturally.

As through I met some friends, almost are in a relathionship status, which mean they are taken. Most of them passing through Long Distance Relationship or we called LDR (and most of them have same shape : Jakarta - Bandung Relationship). And some of their relationship just start to be broken.
I've seen how it happened, and why ? Because they are not ready to start Long Distance Relationship or the other factors ( read : new people zz )
I'm here not to critic or insult you who is reading my post and maybe have the same thing like what i said before, okay. I'm sorry.

What ? Nah, I'm not interested on starting Long Distance Relationship, seriously I won't.
I ended my last relationship because I don't want to get include LDR in my life.
You told me that I'm a coward ? Whatever you said, I-don't-care Baby.

Beside all of many LDR problems, I prefer to pass Close Distance Relationship ( weird ? yeah it is)
In the same town, in the same place, in the same college.
We're in the same town, no matter it was.

But, what i feel now is still too far than i admired.
People I interested in has his own life, his own stories. Sometimes I don't know that does he okay there ? Are you okay with your girlfriend ?

Though,
We're in the same town but different stories.
Kita satu kota beda cerita.
It is just same with Long Distance Relationship.
Then, which one better ?

p.s. Put your smile again on your face, nah, that's looks better, boy.

i'm fine :)

2009-10-17T13:07:00.002+07:00

HELLO

for the times i left you cold,
i just can say 'sorry'.

so, whats up people in here ?
i really miss my blogging time ! one month (or more) had no touch with this blog just feel like wierd here.
oh, last September 29th 2009 i had my 18th birthday !
happy birthday to me. hha
okay then.
you want a quick update ?

almost 2 months i live in Bandung.
enjoying college life here,
study in groups together,
tasting new food in each cafetaria,
stress about UTS (d'oh) every friday,
spending time with besties,
hanging out with new people,
joining Marching Band and Colour Guard practices,
joining PSB-ITB as stage division,
and the most thing i like is be a part of ITB Fair 2010 as performance division.

it's FUN although makes me tired.
i'm fine here. i'm very very fine :)

but kinda times, i miss my family.
i miss my besties, oldfriends outta there.

what i've gonna do just open my laptop and see all of their pictures.
i miss them.
a lots.

p.s. i really get into him now, college homeboy ! hhe :)

colour guard

2009-09-09T13:52:00.005+07:00

HELLO !

090909 !
what's everybody doin' here ?
then i'll say again that because of connection problem in my kos so i couldn't recently update in here.
big sorry :(

just small updates here,
so i've joined 2 major units in my college that is MBWG (Marching Band Waditra Ganesha) and KPA (Keluarga Paduan Angklung).

especially for the first one,
Marching Band is one of my dream activity ( through in my school before there isn't )
so i'm very happy & interest about MBWG ! hehe
the position i wanted most is Colour Guard or we short it CG.
it called for the person ( almost the member are girls) that place as flag spinning and dancing in Marching Band so they make it more interesting and colourful.

Colour Guard

so, in the MBWG trial-test yesterday i've done my best in CG trial-test.
spinning a flag is a little bit hard to do but it's so much fun.
then the result was, I GOT IT ! yeeaaay *lebay* hehe
i can't wait for CG first practice !

enough then, wait for next updates ! hhe

p.s. my body is not delicious today, hukhuk :(

get ready for college life, college girl.

2009-08-23T15:46:00.006+07:00

HELLO

i'll say BIG SORRY again for left you cold my bloggy.
in my place there's a problem with internet connection so i must take a walk to warnet if i wanted to go online.
what a mess :(

so, here i am.
starting a new life in Bandung for a college life. get ready college girl. uhm
stay in a place named KOS-KOSAN (i dunno the english name-zz) push me to be an independent girl.
i go everywhere by myself, by public transportation or take a walk.
buy or make breakfast, lunch, dinner by myself.
doing all things by myself.
seems pretty hard but i'm sure it will be nice then.

almost 2 weeks since i have arrived here.
first week fulfilled with : registration, fixed the kosan and ospek.

ospek (in ITB called PRO-KM) was amazing !
the opening is absolutely great, performing colaboration from many units.
we divided into some groups.
i got 114 group, consist 16 people with only 5 girls from different faculty. (which are damn sick and crazyyyyy ! )
the taplok (senior) were ka devi and ka picul.
we're doing great things like : seminar, making posters, making diary, senam geje, chitchatfoe, photoshoot, and sooo many things that will be usefull for us.
(yeaa, there's still 'creepy things' from senior but it doesn't matter) hehe
we built our togetherness in ITB.

then next week, college life.
yeaa, i started it on 18 August 2009.
as you think, college is different from school. but it's fun ! :)
many friends from different region, many types of dosen, many interesting people to meet. haha
i got a looooots of friends here.
they're nice and easygoing. i love that.

for the units, i choose MBWG (marching band waditra ganesha) as my main priority !
i don't know why, i like it. hehe
and i must try hard to be colour guard, my favorite position. hehe

in the back side,
i miss yeeeeeu all my family, my bestfriends, my gossipas, my sillypadepokan, my dancers, all alll !
in this month my daddy and my bestie (mbex) have their birthday and i'm not include there.
zzz i don't know what to write next.

i think it's the most complicated post i ever write,
guess why ?

p.s. this is ramadhan month, happy fasting all. i'm sorry for all mistakes.

..and finally the BIG dream...

2009-08-01T23:21:00.006+07:00

HELLO

in the end of July 2009 i just can't imagine how was my feeling after saw the result of SNMPTN 2009.
inputed my exam number and then..

Peserta Diterima
No tes : 3094201217
Nama : Dyah Diwasasri R
Prodi : 351075

Subhanallah...
i can't believe it. the prodi's code is for STEI ITB, my main destination, my BIG DREAM !
i just can say "Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah Ya Allah..."
prostration and give much thanks to Allah..
this tears show the time when one of my dream come true.
speechless and unbelievable..

***

i remember the time when i confused to choose being 'optimist' or 'realist'.
now i'm relief because i pushed myself out to be 'optimist', and fight till the last to reach my dream and hope.
and it happened.

"Allah always give chance for us to realize our dreams depend on our efforts."

at fist, i have no confidence to place ITB as my first choice, but i conclude everything is gonna be allright if you're believe and pray.
because Allah is fondly with all of us..
( i can't describe it with the words, i'm just speechless and wordless because of this )

thank you sooo much for all who pray for me and give support until now.
beb dadi, ibu teki, grandma, uncles, aunts, bro and sist..
besties and all my wonderful friends, thank you and congratulations for our success !
you're all amazing and wonderful.
live our life, we're going to create the new era for ourself.
even we separated by the distance, it doesn't mean the friendship things.
thank you & good luck !
i love love you all.
this is a very best gift and finally it's a very good news.

welcome, itb :)

p.s. don't affraid to dream, sure that you CAN reach it !

5 random songs

2009-07-27T16:32:00.003+07:00

HELLO

i'm sorry for left you cold, bloggy.
hmm. finally i made up my last exam on last sunday. geez
now i'm just waiting for the result. hahahaha i'm nervoussss bby, hope it will be a good news. xp

***

look, i'll play 5 random songs in my playlist, then i'll write what's on my mind when i listened to the songs. okay. hha

( song played Deep - Binocular )

what's on my mind ? guess. hha
i'm very very excited because next wednesday on July 29th 2009 we'll have PADEPOKAN ON THE BEACH ! yeaaay ! :D
located in Bandengan Beach, Jepara.
we called it farewell session two. hhi
many problems comes but it had cleared.
i can't waiiit my amazing guys and girls ! :D

( song played Forever by Killing Me Inside )

my bad.
adore someone adorable.
complicated and never be reach (i know, i know, i'm just ordinary).
haha, hurt.

( song played Apologize by One Republic )

i remember one thing.
look, i'm comfort with my silly-lovey-life (which already over) now.
feel : free. independent. no burden.
i think the past is just over, not forever.
so, what must i say...maybe bye and be careful on your way ? hha

(song played Bestfriend by Toybox )

friendship and togetherness.
besties all along (yes, you two my dear :D )
i'll be missing you.
thank you for... everything.
i can't say anything more, you both just priceless.

( song played Vulnerable by Secondhand Serenade )

me. hha
i always listens this song when i feel like i'm a coward, not confident, or feel i'm just an ordinary not supreme highclass extraordinary peep like others.
the chorus : ".. I'll make it better than it ever was." is pushing me not to think that i'm not invicible. hhe
i'm an ordinary who can do extraordinary things ! :)

***

okay game over. hha
thank you for reading this silly-notes.
see yaa balabala :)

p.s. i hate to see your smile because it makes me want to see it again. hhi xp

it would ended soon

2009-07-18T18:59:00.003+07:00

HELLO

sometimes love feels right or sometimes it's wrong.
i'm one of the people who unconditionally in a stuck open relationship
and i'm feel no longer with it at all.

geez, i'm not on the mood to tell you about my current love story, you know.
there is nothing happen between us, okay.
no more because of the 'third people' or something we've gotta do.
so, uhm..

being in undefined relationship for approximatelly one year (or more) isn't short time called.
at first started, it was going great.
everyday just gone gone away.
routine activities, bla bla bla.. b**ed
when i realized,
i'm not feel it anymore.

i'm tired..

now, i just want to be free.
free for thinking anything about love for a while.
because my mind filled up with friendship and other things except you.
yes. it's not a good reason, i know.

would you mind to set me free ?
and let's make a good friend.
thank you for your kindness and sorry for everything.

...hope you know.
( until it posted, i haven't told it to the people i mean *what a coward )
i'm messed up of everything.

p.s. i know i'm the coward and selfish one, but this is what i feel now.

4th award

2009-07-18T18:49:00.002+07:00

HELLO !

thank you for

MAYANG

who gave me this award,
i love your blog too, dear :)

and i will continue this award to...
Ippa
Zulfi
Nayla
Ridho
Icha

get your prize then :)

Padepokan, highschool best moment

2009-07-14T22:25:00.003+07:00

HELLO

i'm sorry for late update because i don't know what i'll write first here.
i've sooo many things that i want to describe.
then i choose this topic,

***

most people said that, 'highschool is the best moment ever'.
do you think so ? i did.

my padepokan class farewell party has held in Bandungan, last saturday 'till sunday (11 - 12 July 2009) in the same villa when i had my middle highschool class farewell party last year.
hey buddies, i think that was 'the best moment ever' in my highschool time.
yes. it was.

like usual farewell party, we share, we sing, we laugh, we had lot of jokes, taking so many pics, cooking together, BBQ party continue with bonfire time, and the last.. 'afterthought time'.
it...was...touchfull.
i can't describe how amazed it was.

the night when our tears become the witness.
we talked open-minded, we shared, we apologized for the faults, we remember the moment of this 1 year, we cried, we sang along, we gave hugs each other and sank into our ambience.
aaaarghh, this make me miss them more and more :(

from the night talks, nyak & i confess & apologize to andika about our big faults to him, and the result was unsuspectly out from our think.
he approved our apologize and just let it go like nothing happened. how kind..
we're seriously sorry... :(

i can't tell you for the details because it'll need so many pages.
but i'll type some words that stick into my mind,

" if you think that you'll miss your friends after 2-3 days from now, i have already thought it for long time ago." - ff

"don't push someone to get along our way, but push ourself to the their ways." -fw

" we won't ever realize how important friends are, until we lost them. " -dm

*sigh*
i really, really love & miss you PADEPOKAN. thank you for the unforgetable year.
we are family and this is my best class ever after.
our togetherness lasts forever.

I LOVE YOU...

hugs & kisses,

p.s. this post dedicated to you all, my amazing guys. i miss you. hiks ;(

fight 'till the last !

2009-06-24T18:19:00.005+07:00

HELLO !

helloooo everybody, what's going on ? :D
long time no see, write, or just take a look in my bby bloggy. hehe
yes. after graduation day (100% graduate alhamdulillah) and had spent the best highschool prom nite ever (see my fb for the pics),
i'm declined from social networking (facebook, blogging, ym, etc) for about 2-3 weeks.
because of the reason 'searching for the best future' is now begin, i must have leaved it for a while. hehe

about my big dream, itb. i'm still unfortunate on the entrance test last month, but it didn't make me down.
having itb as the first choice in SNMPTN, maybe some people could say 'how dare you ?' or 'nekat amat sih ?'

my bestie ever asked anyone about being optimistic or realistic ?
being optimistic to reach your big dream (even though it's very very HARD to realize it)
or being realistic ? choose the 'save choice' one, and postpone your big dream ?

at first, i said realistic, i choosed the save one.
then, it changed after my uncle had said " there is no different between optimistic and realistic, the most important is you still move on to the top and get your best. "
how can i forget something important like that ?

i want to dare my fortune once again, reach my dream and being optimistic.
i'll fight 'till the last !
no matter why, i just want to be relief.

whatever the result it is, wish me bring you a great story on the next post ! hhe
so, see ya next week :)

p.s. i really miss my highschool time. hiks ;(

4th June isn't always bad

2009-06-04T23:23:00.005+07:00

HELLO

today is 4th of June.
this day make my memories returns to the past,
when it -unwillingness- happened the same situation which is : broken heart. (with different people.)

yeah, simple but sure.
i ever wrote the old story of my 4th of June (just click the link), which is tell about my broken heart experiences, a year and two years ago.

040607 - ended with friendship until now, after a very very long time to forget it all. (you know who he is, my bestfriend until now.)
040608 - ended with fast break
and,
040609 - it haven't ended yet, because it's continue the 040608 afterwhile, but i don't know until when it would be lasted.

anyway,
after 040608 happened, i create my special quote which is 'BEING ALONE IS NOT TOO BAD' that becomes my favourite quote everywhere until now.
that words has made me think that " hey, you're okay if you're alone. don't be affraid. it isn't a must that you must be together with someone, right ? "

and then i thought,
i won't be the same happened again in the next year, in 4th of June 2009, 040609, today.
and it becomes true.
i can spend today with a little pieces of happiness, no matter what it is.
fortunately, i haven't broken heart yet, today.(hopefully not)
and it simply makes me create a special quote for today :

' 4th of JUNE IS NOT ALWAYS THAT BAD '

don't worry about your brolkenheart experiences, everyone ever feels it, okay.
don't affraid to feel broken heart, no matter the one who break the heart or the one whose heart is broken,
it's just a step to be mature.

see ya !

p.s. bad memories now replace with sweet memories.

make a bento for someone ? think again.

2009-05-23T09:26:00.003+07:00

HELLO !

'think again before you made a bento.'
it was my bad experience last day when i was trying to make a bento(=bekal) for someone.
i'm not a dramatic lady or somehow, but that day make me turns bad.

so,
i'm not woke up in the early morning to make this bento because i just made a pizza mie.
it's too salty but whatever. haha
then, before we went to the course place i gave him this bento.
but, when we arrived he said something that made my emotions turns to the top and felt like this bento was useless.

fortunately, i must went home faster, so i'm no need to go home with him.
on the way to the front, he stopped me but i walked on and on.
i won't listen anything beacuse i had peevish that time.
i command him not to eat and give the bento to my besties.
then i leaved him and went home.

and you know ?
after that he just send me a message and said "i'm just kidding..."
oh-ho. funny ? after it already happened ?
sorry, i'm not consider it as a joke.You can said i'm too egoistic or whatever, but i was really really peevish that time.
i won't be regret and i assume that i won't make a bento again for him.
it's enough.

ian and baskoro said that "almost boy will be happy if you make a bento for him. "
yeah, almost. not all.
maybe i must make a bento just for myself. haha

p.s. for you especially girls, don't be like me. if they said anything bad about your bento don't be hurt. maybe it just a joke. okay.

3rd award

2009-05-23T09:19:00.003+07:00

HELLO !

thanks for Latif who gave me this award :)

1. Link the person who tagged you.
M. Latif Rozi - Latif2. Copy the image above, the rules and the questionnaire in this post.

3. Post this in one or all of your blogs.

4. Answer the four questions following these Rules.
Questions & Your Answers:
1. The person who tagged you: M. Latif rozi
2. His/her site’s title and url: http://pesona-it.net
3. Date when you were tagged: 18 Mei 2009
4. Persons you tagged

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5. Recruit at least seven (7) friends on your Blog Roll by sharing this with them.
6. Come back to BLoGGiSTa iNFo CoRNeR (PLEASE DO NOT CHANGE THIS LINK) at http://bloggistame.blogspot.com and leave the URL of your Post in order for you/your Blog to be added to the Master List.
7. Have Fun!

it become very serious

2009-05-17T08:03:00.002+07:00

HELLO

it become very serious.

when you always lays your sight on him/her then said, " he/she is my idol ! i just admire him/her ! "
and didn't realize that you've already fell on him/her.
fulfilled your mind, took of your breath, made up your smile, stolen your sight easily.
beside that, you are afraid.
afraid that it would erase someone who belong to you until now.

i know, i'm wrong.
i don't even know how it could be happened...

p.s. 'holiday' (not real holiday) is comin'. i'll be missed you all friends :(

eye

2009-05-09T00:55:00.003+07:00

HELLO

for this time, i push my self into poetic-world. just it seems to be. I don't write it for someone, okay. It's just 'whatever'. hehe

***

THE EYE IS YOU

I remember us,
the way we used to be,
I'd look your smile through my eyes,

But when I see you,
you look right through me,
I feel so alone,
but when I close my eyes...
i see you.

The pain we used to share,
gone up in whirl winds,
will I ever love,
or ever live again,

I am tired of crying,
and I am done trying,
To remember all about you,
but when I close my eyes...
i see you again.

All the feel I am sending,
the memories I won't sell,
I know there must be an ending,
to the story I will tell,

I dream only of your glory,
and happiness in life,
I try not to think of you,
but when I close my eyes...
all i see is you.

***
FYI, which part i like from people around me ?
The answer is EYE.
mostly, i interested with people (in physically) is because the eye.
because it's deep & meaningful.
do you think so ? hhe

p.s. i've got terrible stomachache. soon i'll tell you. it's disgusting, you know. yuck

blogging season coming soon ?

2009-05-05T17:05:00.001+07:00

HELLO

blogging season coming soon !

yeah, one sentence that represent 12th graders in my school, right ?
we know, the reason is almost because of the requirement of ICT Practical Examination which will be held next week.
some students said "ah, buat apa sih ? ngrepotin aja." (then go away)
or just said, "alah, cuma bikin blog kan ? gampang. " (but they won't open and write it anymore)

actually, what is the main function for this assignment ?
is it just : sign up - change template - one post - collect the assignment - done ?
or maybe you'll start to be addicted with blogging ? ( i hope so )

in my side, blogging is one way to represent your talent of writings.
no matter what kind it is, about your dailylife, favourite, song, pictures, review, information, tips & trick or etc.
it can be a place to share what you can't share with anyone in the real life.
you can post anything what you want, anything what you like, anything what you want to share.
don't be shy, fells.
there are soooo many friends you'll meet in here (blog world) or called 'blogwalker'.
you can start to visit their blog, intoduce, give comments, exchange link, etc.

see ?
blogging is not just only for requirements.
blogging is extremely fun !
so, let's start your day with blogging now, and share me with your great stories, i really want to read it. hehe :)

HAPPY BLOGGING !

p.s. I adore Raka Cyril Damar, he's the best from past until now ! :D

Why I often write this blog in English ?

2009-05-02T18:15:00.003+07:00

HELLO

how's your day going ?
now i'm typing Javanesse Drama Script for practical examination next two weeks. geez
oh yes, it's simple-serious-comedious because the theme is : Religious.
lookin' for my drama group, it's such an impossible to make a seriously religious drama.
how bad with that, we'll make this by our way.
..or in the other words : slang it ! haha

***

so, in my last two post, you have my words to explain :
'Why I always writes this blog in English ?'
actually not 'always' but 'often'.
hell yeah.
it's not because i want to show off you how well i could write in English. ( Hey, I haven't good grammar enough, okay. i know that. )
or maybe said, I'm not Nasionalist or not proud about our mother language-Indonesia.
or said, "Nge-blog pake bahasa Indonesia tuh cupu tau, Inggris dong gaul ! Wassap men ?"
no no no, A BIG NO !

take a look, people.
I'm sure that most of you have already read text titled 'Why English is Important' ?
( it is on our English textbook -for you highschool graders, or you can surfin' it on the internet. hehe )
I want to improve my ability and skill in English by doing this real practical learning (blogging in English) beside consider that my grammar isn't well enough and my vocab still insufficient.
I feel helped by you who ever critisize and give suggestion about my shortage ability in English, thank you.
I'm learning here to be better next, just that :)
how about you try to doing this (writing in English) ? not all out, just step by step.
you'll find different sensation. English is Fun. hehe

***

how yeah, serious topic is over. hehe
i'm sorry if some of you offended by my words, i don't mean it. i'm sorry.
based on above, i'm not declare that i must write all of my post in English.
maybe sometimes i'll write it in Indonesia Language.
because, we know that writing in Indonesia Language is more enjoyable than others. hha

cheers,

p.s. School Examination is coming, watch out fells !

last weekend fever

2009-04-28T21:04:00.002+07:00

HELLO !

finally, national examination was over !
so i'm relief for a while in here.
i'll tell you about my last weekend which is just one word : AWESOME.

Saturday, April 25th 2009

1st. SPORTISTA !

as usual team : me, pemz, ian, and baskoro. ( baskoro is veryyy lateee arrgh )
at first we wanted to do jogging in TLJ, but it was closed because there is porsimaptar. zzz
then, we went to school.
yeah school. haha
we played badminton, then basketball. after a while vicky was coming and played tennis with ian and bas.
i played badminton again with pemz, from the far i saw anggari ambon and rendra ( they were after doing MIB )
hooo. sport day today.
for me, it's fun because i feel like it's a long time for me for doing sport since months ago. hhe

2nd. HANG OUT w/ MOM

it's saturday and thats mean : my mom comes home.
after sport, i went with her and my little sister to eat siomay. hha ( my dad comes to from his office to eat a while with his fams. hhe )
then we went to Matahari which is : HOT ENOUGH
what were we do ? oh it's just take a walk. hha

3rd. HELLO BEACH !

my cellphone ringing, a message received and it's from bang hud said that 'spyderguys refreshing day on Maroon Beach start at 3.00 p.m ! if you wanna join please called adri.'
no more thinking i said yes !
and then we go, for me & pemz it's the first time i went there. hha nerd
men playing water & soccer, woman just taking pics. hhe
i enjoy it so much, i love this day. hha

4th. MIDNITE CINEMA

at maghrib i went home and welcomed with : " change your clothes, we'll going to cinema now. "
after a glance, i've already in E Plaza and be ready for watched 'I Know Who Killed Me',
the film was urrrgh, i don't know what to say, it's about mutilation and stigmatis. yuck !
then i closed this wonderful saturday.

Sunday, April 26th 2009

5th. I HAVEN'T TAKE A BATH

early morning, my home's bell ringing, 'TING TONG!'
" there is your friends outta there."
what ? this early morning and i haven't take a bath yet ??
guess what, fikar and ambon. they want to have a chat for a while.
how could i said that i haven't take a bath ?
am i smell or something ? but i have brushing my teeth ! is my perfume working well ? is it help ?
zzzzzz

6th. FISHING O RAMA

midday, my family and om topo's family went fishing together.
me and lia just took a lot of pics and enjoyed meal until we were bloated ! hehehe
it's so great because we joking and kidding each others in a car. hahaha

7th. SLEEP

this the activity i like most. hahaa

***

so that's all my awesome weekend, a refreshing after examination of course. hhe
what about you ?

p.s. i got lot lots of nice pics ! yeeey

hey you the 12th graders, GOOD LUCK !

2009-04-18T08:51:00.001+07:00

HELLO !

i'm sure that all of you esp. for the 12th grade of highschool have already know about the important event coming next week (20/4 - 24/4), which is :

NATIONAL EXAMINATION 2009

for the moment, for our tryhardness, for our wishes and hopes.
let's try and pray for the best,
hope all of we could be 'GRADUATE' together this year. amin
we know we can !

i'm sorry for the mistakes that i did to you. let's fight together !
so, GOOD LUCK y'all !

p.s. pray for me too ! hehe. let's pray and try together ! fight !

a fresh start for something new

2009-04-09T10:22:00.003+07:00

HELLO !

hello hello and hello !
back again with my cheering side here. hehe
this week was make me tired because i can't reflect my real smile in front of the reality.
because of that, i often reflect my stumbled face around of you.
i'm sorry for you who also felt it. hehe
guess why ?
i think you've know about it.
simply reason for adolescent like us, what again if it isn't about love ?
ckckck. so klise, huh ?

start from yesterday, i decide to start something new.
the past problem was over, i got his apologize and we're still okay until now (but with different condition) :)
it's okay, it's okay.
i'm relief for it.

***

Today is a BIG DAY.
Indonesia Election 2009 !
me, as a new 17th person, it is the first time to participate in an election.
wow. i'm proud of it !
you know, don't until you didn't participate in this election because one vote decide the next Indonesia Future !
for you who choose as 'a straight group' or we called 'GOLPUT', i'm not in the same way of you.
don't misspent your right ! don't be afraid for participate in politics !
see, it's for our future and don't follow your egoism for the election.
support by participate on it ! :)

***

some people asked me, why this blog must be wrote on English Language not in Indonesian Language ?
i'll answer it on the next post.
so, just keep watching, okay.
see yaa don't miss yaa !

p.s. i get my spirit back ! i'm ready to start something new ! hehe

a letter to say goodbye

2009-04-07T22:08:00.003+07:00

remember that day,
we decided not to begin.
and then we go.

remember that day,
we met, we shared.
we get along with the time.
without anything tied up.

remember that day,
this happiness comes out everyday.
more and more because of you.
but i'm afraid i can't patch for it.

remember that day,
it was the time for rarely.
and i'm here feel so lonely.

so the game played,
you disappear, so did I.
you got the highest point.
you went, your pics, your happiness with her.
how come i tease them ?
then i know this game has already end.

i mustn't be cry, i mustn't be down, i mustn't be stumbled.
because i know it would be happened.
thank you for the days.
i ever falling for you and i won't regret for it.
congratulations.
may you get your pleasure with her.
and i'm here just see and give my smile for you.

i write on a piece of paper,
i write a letter for you.
a letter to say goodbye.

***

p.s. hope you get your best, i'm sorry and thank you for the days !
yeah, i'm brokenheart again. congratulations to me.