Where were you after all this time?

HELLO

(Actually I don't like the mello drama side who wrote this post, but let her speak.)

I feel dumped, like an anti-social person who don't want to leave the comfort zone, although just hanging out and greet some friends from outer circle, or making a new friend. Seems like a social-climber type, but no, not at all.
I'm bored, it's like I'm making a hive, going nowhere, just stay and not moving. The social interaction restricted to friends or people with the same condition at this time, which is, the academics, the part-time teams, and the one who cares.

"Where were you after all this time?"

Let's just answer that critical question with some sheer smile, while inside you answered "I just don't belong there anymore.."
And the seeker's face shown like "You and your stupid assumption."
Then you still continue your argument, "....I'm out of circle." when they thought maybe your brain get damaged or something.
At that time, I think you would literally do the 'paint the wall with my brain' statement.

The point is,
I miss making new friends and I miss being with some circle of friends.
That's shorter than I thought.
But choice is choice, priority is priority.
Kick you later.

p.s. Short brain damage called forget. I forget that I've ever wrote this post.

The alter ego

HELLO

It closed and restricted just for invited people.
I changed the identical place and key(s), because some people just busting around without any permission, break the key, over curiosity, visit often behind my back, like what you really know about other's business. Well, no wonder that you can talk and keep commenting like you know everything.
Thanks for admitting (after being forced). Thanks I'm not yell and hit you right on your face (though I really, really want to do that at the time).

The current invitation is still valid. Just re-ask me directly, if you're the one I invited and only if you still want to come. I'm not forcing you.

A goal is a dream with deadline and feasible plan

HELLO

No happy new year in here, almost left you more than a month, kindly sorry.
Long post, hope you don't mind.

This should be my last semester for being an undergraduate student. Time flies, I remember the post I made for the joy of graduation and acceptance in my campus about 3,5 years ago. Now less than 6 months, I must be ready to finish my study. Well, although I still continue to get my master here (amin), but let's make it as the short-term goal right now.

No one said that it will be easy, but it won't be that hard, you know.
There's many things I must stand for to get a line with the life-line I decided. Classic academic story like fulfill the minimum requirement of undergraduate GPA to get the fast track scholarship so that I can continue my master. Well, I can't breath with ease yet.

Since the first time I choose this way, I know that I must work harder than everyone else. Harder and even harder. Mostly, they already have their safe condition since the first year, while I'm not. That's my consequence of ruining my first year to get the social activity life and freshmen euphoria. I cries often since the first year until the beginning of second year only because of the bad marks. I'm so weak in math (for sure, I'm not lying), logic, and I'm not interested on electrical neither do programming. Wrong placement of faculty? Absolutely. Some of you've already know that actually I wanna be a doctor, but I swerved and arrived here. Won't be regret because whatever it was, that's my decision. I'm grateful of it, I'm still trying to overcome it, I have to survive until I finish it, and I'm going to get it soon. Amin.

Final assignment along with fast track program, also with the minimum requirement to get the master scholarship (and part-time job). Bismillah.

p.s. You too, people. Don't give up with your goals no matter how hard it is. A goal is a dream with deadline and feasible plan. So, I'll see you on finish line.